Her Second Chance

Chapter 26

12 December (Saturday)

Alex's POV

Two lines. Two very visible lines. I'm pregnant? No it can't be. I'm not ready for this now. I have enough to deal with already. I can't be pregnant. But I am pregnant. Tests don't lie right. But. Now isn't the time to be pregnant. I'm alone, in a new country. What will I do. How will I make it on my own? I don't know what to do. I guess I already knew what the outcome will be. I've been feeling off for the past week now, and I ignored Jens plea of visiting the doctor. But I knew. I knew when the vomiting started and the water works wouldn't stop. Now the two lines are proof. Luckily Josh is at Jens, so I can figure this out on my own. If my calculations are right I would have to say that this happened the weekend we went away. Before the accident. When Luke asked Josh if he could adopt him. That would mean I'm almost five weeks. Five weeks. What am I going to do? How will I do this on my own? But I can, because this is a miracle. Yes as much as I feel alone and scared, I have to admit it is a miracle. I never thought I'd be given this opportunity again. But it's happening. I get to have another chance to be a mother. Even though I might be doing this alone.I'm going to do this. My dream has finally come through. A dream that seemed impossible. That seemed so out of my reach.A dream that Todd threw aside. Dreams he pushed aside, even when I pleaded. Now it's happening all because of Luke. Luke!I need to tell him. I hurriedly grab my phone but stop. No! I can't don't this. I can't drag him into this. I have to do this alone. Surprisingly even though I feel so overwhelmed, I feel happy. Finally I'm going to have another baby. Another miraculous opportunity. I feel like screaming and dancing. And that is exactly what I do, until I'm almost out of breath. First things first. I need to see a doctor. I need to be safe, especially with my problem. Damn. I'd forgotten about that. I can't lose this baby. I've waited to long for this, to now mess it up.Jen will know a doctor. Grabbing my phone. I call her. She gives me the details for the doctor, and promises to meet me there.

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When I arrive Jen is already there. Before I'm out the car she runs to me

"Oh Alex. Congratulations my angel friend." She hugs me

"Jen relax. Let's be sure." I smile, feeling equally excited

When we head inside the receptionist hands me a clipboard with some forms to complete. I do the needed, but leave details of spouse/ father out. When I hand the clipboard back to the receptionist she questions me

"Sorry ma'am. You left your spouse's details out."

"Yes. I am not ma....." I begin, but Jen interrupts me

"Spouse and father is Luke O' Connor." Jen smiles

The receptionist begins writing but stops as if registering the name

"Did you say Luke O' Connor." She asks

"Yes I did. Luke O' Connor. This is his wife." She replies hugging me

The receptionist just smiles, and we go take our seats. After a few minutes it's my turn. I enter the room Jen following close behind. The doctor introduces herself as Dr Jones. Her warm demeanor and soft eyes make me feel safe. I take an instant liking to her. I change into the gown she hands to me and lay on the bed. She begins her internal examination and when she looks up at me I know what she's thinking

"Alex. Are you aware that you have a very severe cervical tear."

"Yes I am doctor. I'm also aware that you can help with that."

"Alex I can do a procedure, but I can't guarantee it'll work. This could be very risky." She says getting up, but I stop her by grabbing her hand

"Doctor. This baby is very important to me. You have no idea how long I've wanted this, and I can't loose this chance. So please help me." I croak, tears closing in