Her Second Chance

Chapter 13

4 Days later
24 September(Thursday)

Alex's Pov

Sunday came a little too quick ending my beautiful weekend, and what a memorable weekend it was. I've been getting shivers everytime I recall what happened. Just like a teenager in love. I keep going back to that saturday night, and Luke's declaration. It brings tears to my eyes, that he stated the 3 most important words that mean the world to me. So much emotions shared, but I still wonder if this is going to last? I guess I'm too comfortable with being disappointed. Even though I know in my heart that he meant every word, my mind keeps doubting him. I mean if I'm being honest. He's famous. He can have anyone. So why me? Doubt seems to be hanging there, even though the light which was put off for so long has been lit again. Luke is my perfect fit, because I've never imagined that with all the damage done to me after Josh's birth, I would find anyone to fit me so perfectly. I guess that's the reason Todd didn't want me. He kept away from me. Maybe he was scared. Even though he didn't voice his feelings he surely made me feel like less of a woman. He knew me for almost half of my life, but rejected me when I needed him the most. Luke on the other hand knows me for a month, and wasn't aware of my issues, and we fit like a glove. He looks beyond my scars.That's the reason why it's easy to love him.

Anyway I made the best of Sunday. I enjoyed Josh being home. We did all the things we promised, and just like that the weekend was over, and being normal again began. It's been work, school,homework, and chores. That's how it's been for the past four days. Luke has been away to London, so I haven't seen him for four days, and I miss him like crazy. We've been talking regularly, but I miss him being around. Wherever I am around the house I'm reminded about him. Especially in my room, and my bed. Nevertheless I made the best of the the week alone with my Josh. We spent these past few days catching up on some warmth,even though it was a school and work night. We went to the movies on monday,a  walk on the beach on Tuesday, and yesterday I took him  to the park , so he could ride his bike,and I could catch up on the evening sun, before winter sets in. This is going to be our first winter alone. In this part of the world.Winter begins next month the month of October. It actually started getting chilly already, but today is more crisp than normal. Still I welcome it. Loving every minute of it.

Work has been amazing, but the week has taken it's toll on me, and I'm really exhausted. Luckily its thursday. Which means the weekend starts tomorrow. That reminds me that there is an awards ceremony this Saturday. Since our companys in the music industry. Each employee has been invited to attend together with their spouses. Nice. Only thing is. I don't have a spouse. So it means me having to go alone. Maybe I'll just pass, especially seeing that I don't have anything snazzy to wear. That would be the logical thing to do. Right? Definitely

Right now though the right thing to do is eat,especially as my stomach starts to rumble, bringing me back to the present. Reminding me that it's lunchtime, and I had missed breakfast. I log off my lappy, grab my purse, and head out to grab some lunch. Before I head out I stop by Jen's office. I knock lightly, and her voice welcomes me in

"Come in"

I enter, but seeing that she has someone there, I mouth a "sorry" and back away, but she stops me

"Alex. Come in." Her voice sounds strange. Sort of like pinched

"Hey Jen. My apologies. I'm going to grab a sandwich. I thought you'd like......"I begin to say, but I'm cut off by the stranger

She turns around, and I notice its Susannah. Blondie again? Blady hell. The irritation I feel toward her increases  even more, when she opens her mouth

"Mmmm excuse me. We're in the middle of something here." She says staring at me.

I so much want to say something, but I hold back, since it's my place of work. Another time. Another place. So instead of creating a scene. I smile, and back away