Her Second Chance

Chapter 23

3 Weeks later (27 November)

Alex's POV

Time really does fly, when you're having fun. And it has been fun. These last few weeks following our weekend away have been amazing. I'm back to work. Josh is at school. And Luke is doing what he loves - Making music. His music is pretty amazing. I downloaded some of the songs, and I have to admit. They're beautiful. Each one telling a story. A beautiful story of someone's life. And Luke's voice is , absolutely beautiful.

Today is Friday, and Luke is only due back from London later on. Josh and I have decided to go watch a movie. I bet he's going to enjoy that. He has become a totally different child these last few months, and I guess the change is due to Luke. The both of them have spent the last few weeks just hanging out. Playing basketball with Cole and Jared. Going fishing. Just getting to know each other, and I notice that they have bonded, which makes things easier for me. We've started the process of changing Josh's name, and as soon as we're married it'll be legal. Married. I haven't started with the plans as yet, because I've decided since we're already married, there is no hurry. And plus I would like a summer wedding. So maybe next year sometime. Luke disagrees though. He wants to do it ASAP,because the adoption process is going to be delayed if we don't, but I'm in no hurry. I guess I'm still really scared. I'm scared about Luke's talk about buying a house. I'm happy living this life,because buying a house means moving in together. And my fear is he might change,or not like how I live. Another fear is him wanting another baby. That's a major issue, which I failed to discuss with him. So all in all, even though I'm madly in love with him, I'm holding back due to fear. I don't know for how long though. Because if I prolong it Luke's going to question me, and I'll be forced to explain, and I don't want to. It's funny how fear can prevent one from living. From excepting, and from moving on. It was fear that held me back for so many years, and it's fear that's holding back from moving on now. Oh what to do? What do I do? Enough of self absorption Alex. My subconscious peeks in.

She's right,so back to the present. Work has started to settle down a bit. And since the holidays are moving closer, schools will be out, and Josh will be home. He's quiet an amazing child, and he's made tremendous progress in school. Just last week I attended the parents meeting, and as I stood there listening to the teacher praise Josh, I couldn't help but be proud. Then the question of Josh"s dad came up, and I froze and Just when I was about to make something up. I felt a touch on my shoulder. I knew that touch, but I  didn't want to make a move. When he teachers eyes went wide, and I noticed Josh's grin, and I knew my intuition was right.

"I'm Josh's dad." The sexy voice stated. Causing ripples of emotion to rush through my veins.

I couldn't believe it. I mean I didn't even mention it to him. Yet he showed up and he stayed for the duration. Afterwards we went to supper, and when Josh was out of earshot he decided to bring it up

"You holding out on me baby?"

"Luke..I'm sorry. I didn't think you'd want to be there."

"Why not baby"?

"I always attended alone Luke. Todd never...." I began, but stopped

"Alexandra. I'm not him. Do you think it's a joke when I say I want to be Luke's dad in every way? No jokes Alex. In my heart he's already my son. So I'd like to be part of it. Don't keep me from that."

"I'm sorry Luke . I really am. Never again okay. By the way you probably gave the teacher a heart attack. Did you see the way her eyes went huge when she saw you."

"Mmm yea. I have that affect on women." He laughed.

I know Luke's right. I should have told him, but I didn't want to bother him. I need to stand on my own. I can stand on my own. I've always done it. I've played single mum for so long, that it's hard to now welcome this in my life. Luke has been amazing though. He's everything that I've always wanted in a man. Loving, kind, patient, respecting, and incredibly sexy. He makes me feel beautiful just by looking at me. And when were together, I feel like I'm flying. His touch, his love, adding to his incredible self. He does have some habits though. But I can live with it. I mean he's a guy. Being tidy seems to be a thing of the past. All in all he's an amazing person.