Her Second Chance

Chapter 4

11 August (Sunday)

Alex's POV

The light from the sun seeping through my curtains, awakens me the next day.Throwing the covers aside, I jump out of bed, and open up the curtains to let the light filter further into my room. Unlocking the patio door, allows the fresh morning air to fill my room.Taking in a deep breathe I let the fresh air fill my lungs.Nothing beats a bit of fresh air to start this beautiful sunday.I move outside on the patio, and absorb the beautiful morning breeze.The sky is blue, with just a few clouds, promising a beautiful day ahead. It's so amazing to feel such peace this early.There's no stress, no anxiety, no wishing to hide under the covers hoping for at least a tinge of happiness.I always used to be in such a bad mood,and being angry became normal for me.Now I just feel relaxed.I might not have the best, but what I have is best for Josh and I.He brings me such happiness, and that's all I need.For some reason I find myself thinking back to last night.Luke O' Connor is such a strange man.When I saw him at the store, I really did think he was a psycho.But I was wrong.Still he's one strange Irish man.I mean he just stares, as if he's seen a ghost, or maybe there's something wrong with me. Maybe he really is psycho.I got to admit though, he's one very gorgeous psycho.And definately out of my league.He's a star, and I learnt a long time ago that the rich and handsome never take interest in the simple people.I guess that's why I stayed clear of the likes of him.I had one boyfriend, whom I married.I was too afraid to trust the handsome, thinking my heart would get broken.Funny thing is I got hurt anyway. I mean Todd was'nt all that, and I thought I would be all he needed, but I was wrong.What if I was also wrong in judging the rich and handsome guys?What if love comes to anyone, no matter your status?Dammit! It's too late for that now.It's too late for what if's,my heart is closed off from love and I will not let anyone in.Enough daydreaming for today.It's time to get ready for church.

I head back inside making sure the patio door is locked.Heading to the bathroom,I do the toilet routine,and head straight to the shower, brushing my teeth whilst I'm in there.It's still early so I put on a gown, and go wake Josh.He can shower and dress while I prepare his breakfast.

"Joshy baby, wake up." I say tickling his feet.

"No mum.Just 5 minutes more." He squeals

"No Josh.Up now.It's Sunday and today is church.The time for sleeping in late,  was yesterday, and the time to wake up early is now."

I open up the curtains, and the light from the outside brightens his room, which causes him to cover his head and growl."Mum....... not the light, and I don't wanna go." He moans.

"Joshua! Wake up now." I say in my stern voice, hoping that gets his attention, which it does

"Ok mum." I hear him grumble as I head to the kitchen.

I hardly use that tone of voice with him since we moved here.Back home it was an everyday occurrance. Mornings were a battle for me, because he just didnt listen.He could never do anything on his own.Majority of the time I ended up spanking him, which caused me to breakdown in tears.So I stopped. When I started shouting at him Todd would tell me to shut up, because he hated my voice. I could'nt shout, and I did'nt cuss, and I did'nt want to spank him anymore.So I had all this frustration, and all I could do was cry in the shower.Things have changed since we moved here .I hardly use the stern mum voice because most of the time he's quiet an amazing young boy.I also don't want to pressure him, because is still a boy, and I want him to enjoy each step of growing up.Even with the moaning and groaning.After breakfast is done I head back to my room to get dressed.On my way, I pass the bathroom, and I hear Josh singing.Well! He's mood has changed. Thats great.

I dress in lacy black underwear.A black long sleeved polo neck dress, that reaches just by the knee.The material is so soft, and moulds to my amazing model figure."Yea right.More like plus size model." My subconscious laughs.I brush out my hair, taking a portion of the front to the side of my head in a clip so that it doesnt fall over my eyes.My hair has grown slightly longer, just below my waist.It looks like I'm in need of a trim.Make up is'nt really my thing so I just apply moisturiser and lip gloss,I spray some perfume, and step into my red heals and that completes my sunday look.Grabbing my purse and keys,I head to the lounge.Josh is sitting at the breakfast nook, dressed, and I see he's eaten already.Making sure the windows are shut, I turn on the alarm, and we head out.