Unstoppable Feelings (BL)

Thirty

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Lev's POV

Tinipon ko ang lahat ng tapang sa kalooban ko para makapagtanong.

"Do you have someone you like?"

For a second he didn't speak and only stared at me.

"In fact, I do."

Nanlaki ang mga mata ko.

"Sino? Is it that guy earlier? Do you still like him?"

Hindi na ako nag-isip, I just blurted out the questions that formed in my mind out of curiosity.

"No, definitely not. Kinalimutan ko na ang eksistensya niya sa mundong ito. Pero kung gusto mo talagang malaman, I can give you a clue," he answered.

Bring it on! I want to know kung sino ang rival ko.

"He's with me right now," dagdag niya.

Huh? Just to be sure, lumingon ako sa kanan at kaliwang gilid ko.

It took me several seconds until I realized it.

"A-ako ba?"

Bahagya siyang natawa, at tumango.

"May iba pa ba akong kasama ngayon?"

"Really? I LOVE YOU TOO."

Parang kusa nalang lumabas ang salitang iyon sa bibig ko, pero nang marealize ko ang kahihiyang ginawa ko, agad kong tinakpan ng dalawang kamay ang bibig ko.

"What did he say?"

"Are those both guys dating?"

"Gosh, masyadong halata naman ang mga baklang 'to."

Uh oh, nakalimutan kong nasa public place kami ngayon. Nakakahiya ang ginawa ko, at ang malala ay dinamay ko si Lucien.

"Lev, let's go," seryosong wika ni Lucien.

Nauna siyang tumayo at lumapit sa akin. He offers his hand to mine, does he wants to hold my hand?

My hand was half way to his pero napabaling ako sa mga taong nakatingin sa amin.

"Let's go," wika ko at naunang maglakad palabas sa cafe. Mabilis ang mga hakbang ni Lucien to keep up in my side.

"I'm sorry," mahinang saad ko.

"It's not your fault, it's already expected that some people will react that way. We can't force them to just accept us if they don't want to," sagot niya.

"Pero sana hindi mo makalimutan ang sinabi mo kay Axel kanina, 'some people may hate us, but there are always some who will support us and its the only thing that matters'."

Well those words wasn't as accurate the way I said it, but it had the same point.

"Opinyon ko lang naman yun," bulong ko sa sarili dahil nahihiya akong aminin, pero malakas ang pandinig ni Lucien at malinaw niya itong narinig.

"But I was amazed that you defended me, and I like the way you answered. It made me love you more."

Huh? Did I hear that right?

Dahil sa gulat, napahinto ako sa paglalakad.

Lucien was smiling while facing me.

"But being with me means a lot of people will criticize us, is it okay with you?" nag-aalalang tanong ko.

"Of course," mabilis niyang tugon, "It's not new for me anyways, my feelings for you is stronger to be influence by their hateful remarks."

Uminit ang magkabilang pisngi ko at naglaho ang lahat ng mga pangangamba ko. He remove all of the doubts and worries I have as I felt him being genuine and sincere.

We can face the cruelty of this world together, we don't need everyone to like us, kahit kunti lang ay ayos na.

Lucien reached for my hands and I felt the warmth of his hands while holding mine. It seems like I'm in a dream right now.

A wonderful dream I don't wanna wake up.

Patuloy kaming naglakad hanggang sa makaabot kami sa malapit na park.

We stayed there for several hours and he began to tell me about the guy we met earlier in the art gallery.

"That was Axel, he was my first love and first lover, but we were only happy at first because I felt he didn't gave much effort in our relationship,

"But what we have was only a secret relationship, pero nalaman ng lahat ng mga estudyante sa Silvester Academy because someone posted about us on the school forum, I didn't actually care about their comments,

"What destroyed me was Axel didn't defended me, but instead, he joined them destroying my image."

Napabuga ng hangin si Lucien pagkatapos niyang magkwento.

Lumapit ako sa kanya at agad siyang niyakap. My eyes are getting teary, nasasaktan ako para kay Lucien.

"You don't deserve to be betrayed like that," wika ko.

"Enough of this tragic stories. Dapat maging masaya tayo ngayon," bumalik sa pagiging masigla ang boses ni Lucien.

"Babalik na ba tayo sa art gallery?" Tanong ko.

"Nope, let's wait until it closed," he smirked.

"Huh, paano tayo makakapasok kung sirado na?" tanong ko naman pabalik.

"Nakalimutan mo na ba na anak ako ng may-ari ng art gallery, so obviously makakapasok tayo kahit anong oras. This is one of your perks dating me," sagot niya at kumindat pa.

Mentioning the fact that we are now dating made my heart race, idagdag pa ang pagkindat niya na ngayon ko lang nakitang ginawa niya sa akin, feeing ko lalabas na ang puso ko sa sobrang lakas ng tibok nito.

"Then I will introduce you to my mother since she always stays late at the gallery," wika niya.

"Y-your mother?"

Wow, this relationship escalates quickly.

"Yeah, don't worry both of my parents are open and they already knows about my orientation."

I envy him. Sana lahat ng mga parents ay open, hindi katulad ng sa akin.

"I know she'll be happy for us," Lucien added and smiled.

Napangiti rin ako nang malaman ito. Like he said earlier, dapat kami maging masaya sa araw na ito, kaya walang dahilan para mag-isip ako ng malungkot.