P S Y C H E

Chapter Seventeen

Mia

After mine and Jaedens conversation on the phone, we texted every day, ate lunch together off campus, helped each other study and he even showed me around the parts of where he grew up. It was nice to see where he grew up and what he was brought up around. He told me more about his past and I told him everything that happened that night. He told me he wanted my aunts boyfriend dead. I had mysterious bruises and when he asked what they were and I said "Nothing. I'm fine." He just shrugged and said "It's your life, Mia. I don't know unless you tell me." It hurt but, I knew he was right.
It was just extremely hard for me to admit my faults. I was comfortable with Jaeden. He brought this feeling to me that reminded me of happiness. He showed me a way out. He didn't see the self-inflected cuts and I'm glad. I was scared on what he might say and he was the last person I wanted to disappoint. I think he was mildly confused but hell, so was I. I didn't know how I was feeling or what I should be feeling towards him. He was a great guy. He really showed he cared and I learned that he was secretly an introvert. He himself wasn't even sure why he was so popular. Which is why I thought we clicked so well. We had an amazing understanding of one another. It was...refreshing.
I also learned that he did indeed had a type. Brunette girls. It made me think I had a chance with him. That I was worthy of being loved. I realized over the past three weeks that I needed him. We were hanging out at the park and just sitting on the swings. I looked over at him as he watched the stars. I said "Jaeden." He replied. "Yeah?" I suck in a breath. I was about to address something I was terrified about. "Do you think my body is um... fuckable? I asked and looked down. "Am I overweight in your eyes?" He laughed. He seriously laughed at me. "Jaeden. It's a serious question." He looked over at me.
"Babygirl, you are not overweight. You have a perfect body and you have an ass. Not gonna deny I've looked, because I have." He said. "If I could, I would fuck you." My jaw dropped. "I don't know how to take that. Thanks I guess? I'm convinced you'd fuck anything that walks."  I explained. "Sex is like a drug, Mia. It just depends on what you're into." I questioned him. "How the hell do I know what I'm into?" I asked. He looked at me. "If only I could show you." I just looked down. "I would let you take my virginity, when I'm ready of course." I said bluntly. "You have enough experience that I would trust you well enough with my body."
He looked at me and went over to me. I stopped him. "I mean, I'm not ready now but when I am, I'll text you." I said and pushed off the swing, jumping off. I walked over to the slide and would just sit ontop the hood of it. He sat at the bottom. "Why is it you don't let any man touch you?" My lips parted. If only you knew. "Because...I." I start. I couldn't finish it. I wanted to but I couldn't. "If I told you, you can't tell anyone." Straightening his posture he looked at me. "What is it, Mia?" He asked me. "I.." I started. "Because there's people at my house who do touch me daily and I don't like the way it makes me feel." I look down.
I'm pretty positive he just let out the biggest breath he could possibly ever let out. "Get in the car, Mia. I'm not fucking around. Now." I flinched when he said now. "I'm sorry, I'm not mad at you." He told me. "It's just- FUCK!" I flinched but hopped off the slide. "Okay, okay. I'm sorry, I'm going. Are you taking me home?" I asked as I got into his car.  He just started driving. "I'm sorry. I don't want to go home. I don't want to cause a scene." I said to him. "Of course I'm not taking you home, I'm taking you to my place. You'll be safer there, right?" Nodding, I agreed. "Yes. Way safer." He sighed. "Fuck I didn't want to do this."
"Do what?" I asked. "You already showed me where you grow up, what the hell is the big deal now?"  I had an attitude in my voice now. He raised his voice at me and it triggered something in me that sent a tremble down my spine. "It's just, I showed you the nicer parts. I wasn't prepared to take you home to the house."
"Why the hell do you say it like that, Jaeden?" I asked. "The House as if it's some mysterious horror film." He looked at me with a look. "Now isn't the time for sarcasm, Mia." I listened to him. "Fine. I just wanted an answer." He sucked in a breath. "It's a crack house and I'll make sure no one goes in my room. So, you can stay in there with me. If not, I can sleep on the couch but I'm not leaving you alone." I roll my eyes. "How romantic." He laughed. "I know, I'm just that charming." I laughed as he drove off to the house.