P S Y C H E

Chapter Thirty Nine

Mia

I would have continued to walk out of that fucking house. The tears dropping down my face was beyond dramatic and it was raining. What the fuck was I thinking? Me? Loved? My own fucking family didn't even love me. I was stupid to think anybody else would.

I was an absolute fool who could not stand this shit. I just wish that I could be loved but I knew that was boung to never happen. No matter who I prayed too. No matter who I talked too. Nobody could love someone as broken as me and that was final. I should have never fallen for Jaeden O'Conner. I should have just kept walking the other way that night at the playground. I should have let Anna hand him his hand. I was an absolute fucking idiot and I hated myself. However, I wasn't gonna do anything stupid. I just needed to find a place to stay. I knew I couldn't go back to Leah. I wasn't that stupid. So, I guess I'll get what I need and go behind the Walgreens. Just grab one of Jaeden's good blankets and shower before I go.
After a good forty five minute walk, I go inside the house and saw Miles talking on the phone with somebody. I just wave to him and wipe my tears before going into Jaeden's room to gather all my things. If he really meant what he said, he'll never have to hear from me again.

I knew I could be a lot and I felt bad I even put him through the shit I did. I didn't mean too. I didn't think i overdid it but, this is his house. These are his friends. I need to get the fuck out.

I hate getting close to people so much because all they do is hurt me in the end. I guess that's the feeling of growing and changing but, I know deep down this is what I needed.

I just didn't know where else to fucking go now and it was a scary world out there for a girl like me.
I packed my bags and everything I had have. Walked into the bathroom and then took off the makeup he paid hundreds of dollars for. Good,

Asshole.

I grabbed it.

Just in case.

I then grabbed everything else small and shoved it into my bag and grabbed the blanket.

On my way out, I was stopped. I looked up and saw Miles. "Move, Miles."

He looked me up and down. "Where are you going?"

"No where that concerns you. Now move please."
He rolled his eyes. "You don't need to tell me what happened because quite frankly you aren't going out on the streets on your own in that. You wouldn't survive. You would be raped and killed in a heartbeat. So, I'm going to take you to my brothers house. Don't think I didn't see you come in with eyeliner trailing down your face. Glad to see you fixed it and got your shit together. On the way there, i'll get you and him something to eat."

I looked at him and raised an eyebrow. "Okay. Can we get chicken nuggets at least?"

His brows knitted. "Sure, I guess. Whatever you want."

I smiled but it definitely did not meet my eyes. "Thanks."

We then got into his car and he took me to get my chicken nuggets while he got his brother a salad with everything as long as there was no animal products. Interesting. I also got a lemonade and he got him a water. I made sure I had buffalo and ranch because that is the only right way to eat chicken nuggets in a day and age like this.

After a good ten minutes of me slapping away his hand from my fries, he ate about half the box. But I don't like sharing. I'm very possessive as we can tell from previous experiences.

We finally arrived at some fancy ass house. "Why don't you live here insteaD?" I asked as we got out and I followed him inside. "Because it's better I keep Jaeden and Tony sane. My brother keeps everyone here sane. It equals out." I smile. His brother must be a good guy.

He unlocked the door and let me in behind him, pointing at my shoes and I take them off. "Ace will hand you your ass if you fuck up his carpet."

I then follow him into the kitchen and set up.

"Whose Ace?"

Miles raised his eyebrow. "How much do you know?"

I looked at him and shook my head. "Not much. Or anything at all I guess?"

"Oh shit. Well, your Ace's problem now. AJ! Foods here!"

I then watch as AJ comes down and my jaw drops. "Aj?! What the hell are you doing here?"