P S Y C H E

Chapter Tweleve

Jaeden

As I got into the car, I would just put on my dad rock music and drive to the party. We usually go to the parties right after school but for some fucked up reason, this party was late as fuck. We did that so we could stay shit faced for the rest of the day.  An amazing feeling. Entering the house, I would walk around and then go to where I find the best section to get fucked up. I needed to clear my mind of her and I needed to do it fast.
Looking around, I spot a small brunette and I go up to her and start using my charm. I chug my drink and throw it into the trash can. I just lean up against the counter and start to have a small conversation. This girl knows exactly who I am and fuck, is she annoying. She won't stop talking. It's like putting myself into a room with nails on a chalkboard for ten hours. Her voice was high and annoying and nothing like Mia's smooth but raspy voice.
I gently place my finger underneath this girls chin and tilt it to look up at me. "Instead of all this talking, why don't we use that mouth of yours for something else, hm?" I ask with a smirk. I don't even know this bitches name. She blushes and nods. She takes mhy hand and leads me upstairs to an empty bedroom. Once we find one, I shut the door and lock it.
I then lay this girl down and look down towards her, letting my hands run up and down her body. Nothing like Mia's. Why the hell is everything about Mia all of a sudden? I just need to get my dick sucked. So, I shove this girl down to her n]knees and undo my pants. I had a massive hard on just thinking about it.
After we were done fucking, this bitch kisses me and I push her away. "It was a one time thing, sweetheart. Don't get to caught up." I wink towards her. "Call me if you want to do this again?" I then walk out. I will block her the minute she texts me. She wanted me to choke her while I fucked her and she asked me to take the condom off. Fuck. No.  I roll my eyes at the hallway and took a seat on the couch once I arrived in my living room. I take my phone and would send Mia a text, praying to god that she would answer, maybe she'd like to come to this party? I know it's not necessarily her scene but I'd rather spend it with her then anyone else here. She didn't talk my ear off, she didn't like physical touch and that's probably because  she's getting her ass beat for fun.
I wouldn't want people to touch me either. She just understood me but, she's so adorable. She just needs a friend and, I know the boys would have the time of their life with her. Maybe someday I can introduce her to them. They already know of her and seen her but, she needs someone too. She can't continue acting like the world is against her and she has to suffer alone.
She doesn't.
She never responds so, I take my time to get drunk, fuck, and high, then I go home. I then went home and laid down for the rest of the night. It was getting harder. I couldn't stay asleep without someone by my side. It was definitely harder to think about then necessary. I was exhausted both mentally and physically. I just wanted to sleep but, sleeping was hard.
The nightmares would just get worse as I grew up and fuck I wish my brain could shut them out but it couldn't. It was devastating.