P S Y C H E

Chapter Forty Six

Mia

    I would get into the back of the car as we all drove, listening to the music that Ace was playing. He said my playlist was too depressing for even him. I felt that in my gut. Ouch. I smile as we just drive past the speed limit. It was funny because I was laughing, AJ was smiling, Kylo was texting somebody. Probably his new fling and Ace was just smirking as we all drove.

    It was dark out and we were in the mountains. The drive was amazing. He was taking me to some fancy restaurant and told me to tell my friends to come. Tony and Miles would be present today as well and I was very excited to see them. Even if they are douchebags at times, it's okay because at least I know they care. I loved them. I loved every single one of them because they never did anything to me. Did Jaeden fuck up? Of course. However, the guys I'm with now are not Jaeden. Tony isn't Jaeden. Miles isn't Jaeden. Miles always made sure to check in on me. See if I wanted anything to eat or if he could come over and watch a movie with me and AJ. Even though he falls asleep every time.

    They were everything I wanted to be.

    They were my everything. All my friends who I now considered family at this point.

    They helped me get off the ground and back onto my feet and no matter what happens, I'll always be at their side no matter what. I'll always have respect for them. I promise you that. That's also because I don't plan on sleeping with any of them. I don't want to be in the crossfire of that. Don't get me wrong, I feel something for AJ and I most likely always will but, is that something I want? I want to see Jaeden tag him and make his life ten times harder. I know he can handle it because he is the strongest person I know but,  Jaeden was a fucking asshole with no respect for anybody but himself.

    He's fucked a lot of us up.

    I don't understand why he did what he did and I probably never will. There was just so much I could question and live with and I'm personally perfectly fine leaving him in the past. There was nothing left to say. I will always be surrounded by him and his presence because that's just how things were. We had mutual friends if you even could call them that. However, doesn't mean I have to speak to him. If Kylo can deal with it even though he feels nothing, I can too.

    We then find a parking space and I get out as AJ opens the door for me. I noticed he does that a lot for me. Sure he might be a feminist but, he's also a gentleman and will open any door for me. I'm perfectly fine with that too. All things considered.

    I smiled softly and then looked up at him. He would just walk next to me with confidence just coming off. His head was held high and he had his hand in his pocket. This had to be the hottest thing I have ever seen. I don't know why. It just was.

    "How do you do it?"

    He looks down at me.

    "What do you mean?"

    "Well, your whole demeanor is confidence, villain-like energy whenever we're in public. It doesn't help your muscles are huge and you have the height of a god but you hold doors for me, you give me gifts, you make me feel so special. I don't understand AJ, why don't you let people see the real you? The one I see all the time."

    "Because not everybody is you, baby. Come on." He smiles. "I meant what I said earlier."

    "I know you did but, I like both sides. I was just wondering how you did it. I mean, you give off the same energy as everybody else but, you're still the sweetest one I have seen. I also never see you bring a girl home and if you aren't working or at the gym training for the next fight, you're home all alone in your bedroom. It's sad because you need a girl who can you know, be a fucking woman and treat you the way you treat everybody else. Even if you are grumpy in the mornings."