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16. Why...

TW:Blo0d, Death

Hara's POV

"It's Seoyun...and...and she's dead." Leehan cried while Taesan and Sungho's faces went blank. I felt bad for them. They tried their best to make her fall in love, and that serenade was unexpectedly their first and last.

I just met her last night, and tears fell off my eyes. I feel guilty. Why am I thinking that this is my fault? "Where did you get that news? Where?!"

Leehan pointed at Seoyun's destroyed house, where the arson happened. We immediately ran and ran until we reached the burned house.

A lot of people gathered around, and a lot of crying I heard both of my ears. "Seoyun!" A woman cried while holding Seoyun. When I saw where the crying came from. I can't believe of what I saw. I made my eyes cried while seeing her dead. All six of them cried a lot that they can't even accept what they saw in front of them. I cannot accept the fact that I just met her, and she's gone just like that.

She was covered with blood all over her body. I saw about three stabs on her chest and a wounded line on her neck. I bet two or three people did that. There's a mark on her hand like a logo or something. It's the same logo at the backyard.

This feels off. That mark is familiar to me.

It's a outlined red circle with a triangle inside of it. That red mark is obviously her blood.

I was trying get close with the boys and can't help but to cry. Woonhak sobbed while Jaehyun hugged him. Sungho and Taesan cried a little because they're strong on the outside but they're soft in the inside. Riwoo and Leehan sobbed too and comforts each one of them. While me...

Me? I don't know. I am standing alone seeing them cry.

"Huh?" I see something. There's three people killed someone. It's blurry and I only see shadows. I looked at myself, wearing white dress covered in blood. While I was looking at the shadow, someone shouted.

I can see clearly, it's my lover! I tried to shut my mouth without noticing the killers. One of the killer's hand has the same mark we saw at Seoyun's hand and at the backyard.
"Minseo, run!!"
I heard a lot of punches and stabs around my ear. It's traumatizing too see. Why of all the sudden I remembered that memory? It's hurting inside. My chest is putting a lot of weight somehow. Then, the three killers ran and tried to find me. I immediately ran until I got out. I want to end this memory. I want to end this traumatic experience. I want to be free!

Why of all times I experienced a lot of pain ever since my mother died. I want a peaceful life with a peaceful world. This world is full of lust and cruelty life.

I feel dizzy. My head hurts again. I'm already back in the reality seeing Seoyun inside in an ambulance to autopsy her body. The boys are still crying. I cried too remembering that memory. It's crucial. I regretted remembering my memories. I want to end it. All of us came back to the house. Bringing the gloomy color inside the whole house.

All six of them are in front of their door. They're facing the reality and sadness inside them.

"Wait" Jaehyun locked his door and cried.

"Guys" Sungho locked himself too, and heard many rage noises from his room. I think he messed everything inside his room.

"Woonhak, please"
"I'm sorry Hara noona, but we need space." Woonhak turned his joy into sadness. He also locked himself to his room.

"Ta-Taesan-"
"Just go away Hara." Taesan said it in a very cold voice.

"Riwoo? Not you too." Riwoo glared at me with his anger. I felt scared for them.

"Please, not you too Leehan." Leehan got teared up, as soon as he carries his toy fish plushie. He locked himself too.

All of them locked themselves in their room. I can feel their rage, anger and...sadness. I feel pity for them. I think I'm going to cry too. This situation went worse after they got busted. I feel sorry for them.

I knocked their door over and over. But they didn't responded. They are broken, heartbroken. I got teared up, cried and sit outside my door waiting for them to come out.

"Please everyone, come out." I bursted out my tears. I just wanted to help them. My mission for them is complete but not like this. All they wanted is to be loved by someone, and not to lose their love. I knocked each one of them many times and no response.

Why this world have to be cruel?

That line is familiar...

(After several hours)

I got slept outside my door, still waiting for them to come out. I suddenly woke up that I hope was a nightmare but it wasn't. It's been 3 o' clock in the afternoon and I'm still alone outside the hall.

"Hara...I need to talk to you again." Finally, Taesan responded. I quickly ran to his room crying in pain. Seeing his room, I can feel it's sadness and pain from him. The paintings went gloomy and broken. The broken statues, the paints are everywhere, and Taesan is lying on the floor crying in rage. I cried again. I felt the pain that they have.

"Taesan, w-why?" I went stuttered because of crying.

"I'm sorry if we made you cry. You were never supposed to get hurt at this rate but.." Taesan continues to cry again.

"I-It's ok. Burst out all of your anger. It's not ok to bottle things up." That was my mother's advice when I was a kid.

"I did my best just to win her but why? Why it has to be hurt this way! I just couldn't... accept at what we saw. She's gone already. Just why!" He messed everything. The paintings are teared. The paints are all over the place. His supposed gift to that girl was thrown to trash. Everything went mess to Taesan's room.

He stopped for a moment, and sit on his bed. I also sat on his bed. I patted his back to keep him calm.

"I'm so sorry for your loss. You tried everything to win her but the reality has it. The murder mystery in this place needs to be settled. I cannot repeat it's history ever again. It's just this is somehow connects something from my memory."

"What is it?"

"I encountered how my lover died. It's the same case as her. It's traumatizing to see it. I can't even accept it. My whole family was killed while I was the one who survived. I want to end this incident. I want to end this!"

Someone opened a door and I suddenly rushed outside to see it. It was Sungho.
Sungho's room is even more messier than Taesan's. He a clean freak but he's scarier when he's messy.

"Hara, I have something to give to you." He handed me a note with the same mark from Seoyun's hand.

I opened the note inside. They already know my location!

"We're amazed that your still alive, Minseo. Did you already love the incident happened from your neighborhood? I bet you don't but soon I'll capture you. Hand me over the book or else I'll capture your friends.

- jh -"

A book? What book? I don't remember where I hid that book.

"It's from your room. You have to explain this further. Do you know these people?"

I don't know what to explain in front of him. I don't know what to say.

"Tell me Hara! Do you know these people?"

"Um hyung!"

A loud gunshot occured outside the door and heard a lot of people screaming.