Mated To The Devil

Chapter 56: Pretty Lies

Natasha's POV

We have arrived at our town after hours of driving.

It's been months since I've been here, it has been months since I last saw my parents, it has been months since the last time I was here, and in those times, Sayna was still alive.

I thought it would be nostalgic being in here again but it does not feel like it. It feels different, it feels strange. And I know because my comfort is not here anymore.

I thought of the city, of the people in there, of Elyse, of Valerian. . .

Valerian. . .

Hurt is an understatement to describe the pain that I'm feeling in my heart right now.

I lost the most important person in my life and it feels like I'm going to lose someone that had become important to me, too.

It hurts.

It hurts so much I don't have any words to describe what I'm feeling.

The heaviness that I felt in my heart was so hard to contain that my eyes would not stop tearing up.

I lost Sayna.

I lost Sayna and the reason for that loss is the man that I love.

Is the man that I learned to love.

Why did Valerian do that?

When I asked him about Sayna, he told me that he didn't know anything. He didn't do anything. I believed him.

I believed Valerian. I put my trust in him and he betrayed me.

He betrayed my trust.

He betrayed my love.

How could he do that?

How could someone do that?

Just when I was ready to admit to myself that I love him.

Just when I was ready to consider taking a risk for him and he did this.

"I'm so sorry," I apologized as I caressed Sayna's tomb with my hands. "I'm so sorry I wasn't here."

I'm so sorry that I became happy with the man that claimed your life.

I told myself that I will be cherishing the time that I had with Valerian in Greece for the rest of my life but thinking about it now, that time in Greece with Valerian seemed so wrong. It was wrong and sinful.

I shouldn't have been happy with him.

I had no right to feel happy when something terrible had happened to my beloved friend.

"I'm so sorry." I sobbed. "I'm so sorry, Sayna."

I felt someone sat beside me.

"It wasn't your fault, Natasha. You didn't know," Draven spoke beside me. "She was already gone when Alpha found her. She was just coming home to us when Valerian Fenrir killed her. It was too late. None of us had the chance to help."

"Elyse loved you more than she loved us, she's going to be sad seeing you this sad." I heard Urien say behind me.

I sobbed even harder upon hearing what he said.

I don't care if I came out weak in front of him for crying so hard.

I don't care.

I really don't care.

All I know is that I missed my best friend and I should have been there for her.

"Natasha," Urien called my name.