Moths to a Flame

2. Exchange of Letters

The next morning I woke with my lack of sleep and treaded down to the kitchen to greet my parents. They had a cuppa tea waiting for me and I thanked them. We ate some breakfast, then I washed up and got dressed for the day and I finally decided to opened the letters from the boys.

Hello my darling,
I know I didn't get to talk with you much after you we told you, and I apologize if it put you in an awkward situation also finding out about Ominis as well. I don't mean to push you, I just want you to know that whatever you decide is fine, I just don't want this come between our friendship, I cherish it so much and I hope you have a lovely summer with your family. You're always welcome to Feldcroft if you ever wanted to pay a visit. I can't wait to hear from you soon and see you again at Hogwarts.
All my love, Sebastian.

Dearest Aria,
I apologize in advance if my forwardness had caused a fracture in our friendship. I hope we could get back to a place where we can still be great friends. I understand the we probably overwhelmed you that day and I apologize for that as well. I hope you just understand our feelings and understand what we did. I also hope you have a lovely summer. I know you were keeping your distance from us that last week and I didn't have the chance to tell you in person. I hope this owl finds you in good health and good spirits. I hope to hear from you soon Love.
With love, Ominis Gaunt.

They're so sweet the both of them. They both said the same thing. I don't know this only makes it harder for me. Oh my this is going to kill me. I decided to write to Poppy, to help me out since she knows of this dilemma.

Poppy, I have a problem with the Slytherin boys, they both just sent me very sweet letters and I'm even more confused then before I need a little wisdom from you, or if your gran has an idea I would love hear it. Also let me know if there's any time you would like a visit. Have a great summer!
-Aria

I'm hoping she will have an idea in what I should do. I leave it for now and join my family downstairs and help my mother clean and cook. After supper I went back up to my room and changed into my night clothes and I go to sleep. The next morning I woke to another owl siting outside my window. I recognized Poppy's handwriting and I didn't hesitate to open it.

Aria, it's great hearing from you and I'm sorry about the boys, my Gran didn't have anything to say, but she hopes you're happy with with any decision you make. And unfortunately she isn't allowing you to visit since we're going away for a while; the poachers caught wind of our location and we have to leave the area. So I can't risk anymore letters for the rest of the summer, so I hope you enjoy it and I can't wait to hear all about it on the train back to Hogwarts. Oh and can you care for Fuffy for me, the owl, I can't have him here. Thanks a lot.
Sincerely Poppy

Well there goes Poppy and her help. I guess it's time to write the boys back so they don't worry. Not sure what to say but I'll figure something out.

Dear Seb and Omi,
I know you sent separate letters to me, but since I'm going to basically say the same thing to the both of you, I don't see the value in wasting the extra ink and parchment, I hope you understand that. Anyway while both your letters where sweet and thoughtful, and I enjoy reading them, I still haven't made a decision, quite honestly I don't think I will be able too. I love you both equally in different ways. You're both amazing, handsome, incredibly smart and talented wizards. I honestly wouldn't be able to describe my feelings to you. I can't choose. It would be like choosing to cut off one of my arms, I could never choose between the two of you. I don't know where that would leave us, I don't want to hurt either of your feelings, but please don't hate me for that. I value our friendship no matter where it goes I hope you can understand my dilemma here. Just know I love you both and I need more time to think. I hope to visit you both in Feldcroft later on in the summer, if that would be alright. Let me know. Enjoy your summers please.
Love always, Aria.

I finished it read it over a couple of times just to make sure it sounded alright, and I sent it off on its way. I got that out of the way. I since that took all day to write I ate supper with my family and came back to sleep. That night I had strange dreams.

It started off with me alone with Seb, we were kissing in what looked like the Undercroft, he was very passionate. But we got interrupted by Omi and then it was me and him kissing while Seb stood there watching, but enjoying it? Seb came up behind me kissing my neck from behind while Omi and I were kissing from the front. Why was I enjoying this. Then I felt then that they were getting handsy with me. Hiking up my skirt then— I spring up awake. Oh shit. I then felt a strange sensation down below. My heart racing. It was still the middle of the night. I just sat there in bed, my thoughts and feelings were a mess and I don't know what to make of them. So I just started to cry. I felt the tears slip down my face. I'm so confused and conflicted.