Moths to a Flame

57. Post-Partum

Sebastian pov
Three weeks later.

It didn't take long for that bubble of new baby bliss to burst and all hell to break loose. It's barely been a month with Anna-Marie now in our lives and home and we're all feeling the shift hard. But Aria feels it the hardest. I've noticed over the last couple weeks. She obviously still takes care of her but she's more withdrawn. Her parents haven't been able to come by and help out as much as they thought, and since Ominis and I have to to get back to work at the ministry she was left alone with her most days. I could tell she was exhausted and irritated. So we try to help out as much as possible when we get home to give her a break, but by that time most of it is done and she's goes down to sleep.

When she cries in the middle of the night usually Ominis or I will take it just do Aria can sleep, but she's still up and following us to her room in case she need a feeding which usually happens and unfortunately that's not something either of us can physically help with. So when she returns to bed Aria doesn't sleep much after that. We try not to take her mood to heart, it's hard adjusting to a new baby, and her body just went through a lot, so she's still not completely recovered, her hormones are still crazy. It's just hard seeing her like that.

I'm sure it will pass soon.

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Aria pov

It's so hard, and I'm not sure I'm good enough.
I'm not a good enough mother and person to take care of this little baby. I try so hard to be good. Cater to every cry, but it's just so hard. Exhausting is even the word to describe how tired I am. Drained of all energy. No one tells you how much work goes into babies and motherhood.

And it was only getting harder and harder as the weeks passed. Christmas was approaching fast. I know Sebastian and Ominis are trying, they really are, but they don't know how to do things properly and she just cries all the time. There's just so much to do being home like this, between prepping her bottles and changing her cleaning the house. There have been many times they would remind me that I'm a witch and can do magic. That there's spells to do the cleaning for me. I forget and alway do things the muggle way. The harder way. But I don't like to use magic around Anna, I'm alway afraid something will go wrong and it could harm her somehow. And while it does help with the domestic house work it doesn't when it comes to Anna. But it's still really heard.

I finally got some time away, my parents came to visit and they said they would stay with her while I went out to get come Christmas presents. So I floo up to Hogsmeade to see if I could find something for everyone. It felt good to take a break. I actually decided to go to Madame Snellings. She greeted me as lovey as ever. When she asked what she could do, I told her I needed a refresh, since I recently had a baby. She just told me "say no more" as if she's seen this before, thinking about it she probably has.

I left her shop an hour later and actually felt a bit better, I was able to shop for Sebastian and Ominis and even found some baby things for Anna, when I returned home Ominis was home, with my parents, holding Anna.

"Evening" I said entering the house.

"Hello love, how was your day in Hogsmeade" Ominis asked.

"Oh just lovely, what I needed actually I went to see Madame Snelling, and she fixed up my hair and made it all pretty. Then I went shopping for you both and Anna, for Christmas." I tell him.

"That's wonderful love, I'm glad you had a good day" he says to me. I walked over to him to kiss his forehead and I stood behind him.

"Where's Sebastian, shouldn't he be home by now?" I asked.

"He owled saying he has to stay later at the ministry, he wasn't specific, but he'll be back" Ominis said.

"Oh, alright. Well should we eat?" I asked.