Bound by Fate | [✓]

14. Nothing was Real

My head spins.
My body aches.
My legs trembles.
My hand shivers.
My soul... my soul... is about to die...

.

What would have happened to me if Atharva didn't come?
What would have happened to my dignity if hadn't run?

Everything Pandit Ji said has already started.
Atharva and I are going to be apart. I feel it. I feel it in my heart. I feel it in my soul.

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Darsh said,
Atharva would never except me if I become impure.
What if that is true?
What if he was saying the truth?

I know Darsh was trying to provoke me with those words but what if he is true about that?
Will Atharva ever except me if I lost my purity ring to someone other than him?

In Indian culture,
Woman's purity is holiness. Her entire body is a gift of god and her soul is worshiped by every people around.

It's cruel reality but most of the 'Small-minded' men only wants women who are virgins. I've heard many cases were men abandons their wives after finding out they aren't virgin.

It's not wrong to want or except something or someone as you desire but it's wrong to abandoned someone if they do not matches your expectations.

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I know Atharva isn't like that.
But,
What if I am not enough for him? What if he expect more from his partner and I am not what he wants?

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Atharva is a charm.
He can get anyone he wants on snap of his fingers.
His lifestyle, his habits, his friend circle is different than what I am.

Especially when it comes to physical pleasures.
He is holding himself back for me. He is holding his desires back because I am not ready. He is being pure gentleman but what if he get bored of me?

What if he get annoyed because I am not keeping him happy physically?

I know he wouldn't say it but he is a man. He'd always need those physical feelings from the woman he loves...
And here I am,
Too strict, too proud and too moralistic.

What if he leave me?
What if he doesn't like me in the first place?

"I will fucking kill him." Atharva grudged as his voice echoed on the empty road. "I will skin his every part of the body and watch him bleed."

"No... no please..." I wrapped my hands around him. "No... please leave me..."

"I am not leaving you Eva." Atharva slowly picked me up in his arms and made us sit inside the car. He simply made me lie on the backseat while my head rested on his lap.

"Abhi will kill Darsh if he finds out what he did to me..." I know my brother. He would burn down the world once is angry.

"Why only Abhi? Atharva also will kill that bastard." Ishani sat beside Advik who drove us after making sure we're sitting safe.