Bound by Fate | [✓]

20. Our Love

18 hours.

I hadn't slept a wink in 18 hours. Standing next to my supervisor as I assisted him with the surgery of a VIP patient.

The patient had so many complications and a history of alcoholism and high cholesterol diet.

It was one of the most terrifying operations I had witnessed in the past 4 years of my life as a surgeon. And the moment when the heart monitor flat lined. I felt what I had only felt once before in my life.

I felt death.
And death is nothing but terrifying. It looked beautiful from afar. But it was terrifying and hollow the closure you walked to it.

And even more terrifying than death is when you see people you love...

When Death knocks on your door. It is silent. It is unchanging yet it changes you completely. It scars you completely for life.

Why Life?
Why death?

Why Love?
Why Hate?

I sought out answers. To all the emotions that I felt so utterly and deeply that I couldn't help but try to find answers.

The joy of bringing back someone from the brink of death. It fills you up with the dopamine that replaces the adrenaline almost immediately.

To defy death.
That is what being a Doctor meant to me.

"Nani... I wish I could have saved you that day... I wish."
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It was almost three in the morning when I returned back home. Only to find Maa and Amara waiting for me in the living room. I frown and walk up to them. Confusion clouding me. My eyes and body throbbing from all the exhaustion.

"Maa? Amii? Why are you both still awake?" I ask curiously as I take a seat on the floor between both of them. They sat on the sofa their legs scrunched up.

"Bhaiiiiii!" Amara squeals happily and clings onto my shoulder from behind. I groan at the sudden jolt. And clutch onto her arms that were now wrapped around my neck.

"Careful princess. You don't want to hurt yourself do you?" I ask softly as I lean back into my sister's hold.

"Oh hush! I am so so so happy today. Happiest day of my life. And if I tell you. You will not even believe your ears." Amara giggled while rocking us both in a soothing rhythm.

A habit she had developed after realising that it soothed my veins when I thought about Evara. And now she could do it any time and I could feel sleep clouding my senses.

That was her genius move to make her brother sleep without pain.

"Hmmm... What happened? Did you get your Mr. unreachable?" I teased while tilting my head upwards to look into her face.