Bound by Fate | [✓]

16. Fall from Grace

I sighed and sealed this letter in an envelope like the the others and placed it in my bedside drawer. It had been so long since. I had smiled.

So long since I had spoken to my parents. So long since I had seen Evara.

I pursed my lips to hold back my tears and tried to divert myself from the throbbing pain in my chest.

It had remained ever since the day Evara drove away in her car. Drove away with the promise of probably never seeing me again. And I would die if that's what she had planned. Every second was torture and the more time I spent the more I thought about how...

She hadn't glimpsed back.
Not once.

She hadn't given me a chance to explain.
Not once.

I could blame none other than myself for the mess I had created in my life. I hated self pity and loathing and that is exactly what I had become a pathetic weak shit. Weak because I didn't have the courage to talk to the girl I loved up front.

I didn't have the courage to face my own mistake. My blunder.

The sun burns you if you get too close.
And even the beautiful moon had scars.
If imperfection was nature then why?

Why could my harsh rays burn away and drive away my moon?

At least the Sun and the moon met at some point. They met during an eclipse.

"And now all I can do is wish for that eclipse to be sooner than later. Evara..." I sigh into the pillow as I lay down. Once again feeling my pillow go wet with my tears as I sobbed like a baby into it.

By you I have been undone... Darling.

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Immediately after coming back I had cut all ties with Rohan and Aarush and Adarsh had disappeared off the face of earth. As if he never existed. He had used his dad's political influence and power to stop me from trying to find him.

But, I wouldn't give up. I would find him even if I had to search the earth rock by rock. I would burn the world down for Evara. And Darsh was just a slimy pest.

I had even asked all of my previous flings to sign a document that said and claimed that what I had with them was nothing but a bet or dare. And they were under no circumstance ever touched by me.

I had done everything.
Everything I could do to prove that Evara was never a bet to me.

I had never once done any of the actions that those scums had asked me to do. I never wanted to touch Evara in a way she didn't consent. I never agreed to film her under any inappropriate conditions. Nothing.

I had done nothing of the sort.
I hadn't done what they asked.

Evara was not a bet to me.
She was not a bet.
She was not a bet.
She was not a bet.