Seasons

One, Two, Three (Flashback III)

(JK lang pala. May continuation pa 'yung flashback 😓)

Anntonia's POV:

I cannot remember what time I slept last night. But I remember myself getting a wound in my forehead from bumping my head on the headboard when my heart started aching in the middle of the night again.
 

It just feels terribly awful, and it's getting worse every time a scenario pops up in mind of what they could possibly be doing. I do not trust that man. He does not look like he has pure intentions for Max.
 

Or maybe, maybe I am just a loser. A bitter loser.
 

Well, the wound was not that deep. It's just like a small reddish cut and it's not even bleeding. 
 

It's 5:30 in the morning and I am just staring at the wall, feeling drained, hopeless, and lost. I know for a fact that there's not a chance that she will reciprocate the love I have for her, and I can live with that. I can go on accepting the fate that she's not just into me and be contented that I do have a place in her heart as her childhood best friend, hype girl, and soul sister.
 

As much as I want to love her with all that I can offer, it's really not possible because the love that I can offer can be somehow too much for her to accept because, all throughout these years of loving her, I learned to let it grow and take over my being.
 

If it's too much for the giver, then what more for the receiver?
 

I shut my eyes and let my emotions flow within me. I spent a minute trying to process everything and think about how I could possibly face Max without breaking down in front of her.
 

I am consumed by too much worrying. I want to knock at her door and check how she is doing, but I am being eaten by my fear that I could possibly see something that is not favorable for me.
 

Accepting that no matter what happens, I still have to go out of this room and show myself to her because, for sure, her parents will be looking for me too.
 

I decided to get up from the bed and sit on the floor instead. There's this DSLR camera I brought in SM when I was checking for knee pads. It's obviously an impulsive buy since I am not into photography or filming. Something in me just convinced me to invest in something like this. 

It makes sense, though. I only have a few more days left in this country, and taking photographs is probably a must before leaving, especially because I often miss the Philippines.
 

I removed the cover and turned on the camera. I checked the focus through the lens to make sure that I was capturing things well. When it was done, I scanned the room to find an appropriate subject for my first photo.
 

I creased my forehead when I saw the bottle of Jack Daniels on my bedside table. 
 

I thought Michelle took it?
 

As I look closer, there's this little note posted on the lamp beside the bottle.

'I'm sorry if I took it. I'm giving it back in case you want it (or if there's more of this bottle that you're giving importance)

But please don't drink this right after you wake up. Take a rest. It is evident in your eyes that you had a rough time.

- MMD.'

I took a minute to re-read the post-it notes, and I found myself smiling at the gesture. Why would she even think that this bottle is important to me? 
 

I looked at the camera that I was holding and back to the bottle of the alcoholic drink on the table. I decided to take a photo of it with its focus on the note that she has written. I snapped it and checked the photo.

Cute, and thoughtful.

After a while, I decided to rummage through my belongings and look for my bag of snacks. I searched for a cup of instant noodles. Then, I saw my favorite KOKA Tom Yum. 
 

I am planning on giving this to Michelle as a gift for what she did to me last night. I took a piece of stationary paper too and wrote a message.
 

'เจริญรุ่งเรือง.. in English, Rise and Shine!

Thank you for last night again. Here's a token of appreciation just in case. I hope you'd like it : )'

After doing what I had to do, I prepared my stuff and went to the bathroom to get a shower before stepping out of this room.

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A/N:

I know naliligo lang si Tonyang sa present time pero ang haba na ng inabot ng flashback 😭 Please, hayaan niyo na. I need this plot para mabuo ko delusions ko BWJSJDHEHEHSHAHAHABAHAHAHA

Anyway, Thank you very much sa 1k+ reads!! Ang bibilis niyo 😭😭 Very grateful naman ako kasi sinimulan ko lang naman 'to kasi I have so much love for #PorDee.

May continuation pa 'to hehe drop ko na lang itong isa kasi hindi makatulog si bading.

See u sa next update :D