Mine For A Moment

Chapter 17

Micky

I sat down on the toilet while Kayon relaxed in his bath water. He wanted me to roll him a blunt and just stay close to him. "I'm sorry I froze up earlier, I'm not always quick on my feet."

"You couldn't have changed anything..."

"Lonzo, just knew what to do, he knows you."

"It doesn't change my feelings for you...but apparently he does know me better than I thought."

"I saw you two, I open the curtain for just a second and, I saw him hugging you."

"I can't tell you what that was because honestly Mick I'm not sure..." he laid his head back on the towel and tears fell down his face.

"I'm being so stupid questioning you about him when you are in pain...just forget I brought it up."

"Naw, I owe you an explanation...just don't have one" his voice cracked.

I put the blunt down and kneeled by the tub. I wiped his tears. "I don't need one, if whatever he did made you feel better, I'm thankful."

"I didn't know your heart could physically break because of someone." He rubbed his chest. "I don't know why I actually..." he bit down on his lip. "Why I actually thought she was really coming for me."

"People get caught up in the drug lifestyle and become addicted to it. She wants to be better, she just is not her."

"Get in here with me," his eyes opened.

"I don't think sex is what you need right now Kayon, it won't make you feel better."

"But it's what I want,"

"Finish your bath, smoke this blunt, Gma cooking. We going to eat and curl up on the couch and stay up all night talking."

"Uhhh," he groaned. "I wanna fuck, Mick...I been talking all day."

"I just don't feel right with what's going on, sorry."

"aaight, can I finish my bath alone?"

"Because I said no sex?"

"I swear I ain't mad, just let me be alone for a few minutes. You go pick a movie." He pulled my face to him and kissed me.

I stood up and left.

Malani was in her room sitting on her bed. "How is he?"

"Trying to be strong."

"His mom such a bitch,"

"She definitely is," I sat on my bed.

"So, not that it's any of my business but Lonzo likes Kayon too?"

"Yeah,"

"Wow, I was in shock. You got competition bestie." She scratched her head.

"We aren't official, so" I shrugged.

"You wanna be?"

"Now, I don't know." I really didn't. I wasn't sure how deep his and Lonzo's connection were.

He did join us for dinner after his bath but fell asleep on the movie, so I laid there while he slept. He was annoyed with me, but sex ain't the answer to pain. Also after what I witnessed, I'm not sure we should still even be having sex. We should probably slowdown. This world was still new for him, and maybe he didn't take it as serious as me. Actually, as I thought about it, I carefully removed his arm off me and got up. I stared down at him, then went and got into my own bed. I could be here as a friend, but everything else is on pause.