Mine For A Moment

Chaptet 40

Lonzo

"He seemed like he wanted jump on me, I ain't wanna get beat up na..." I put my hands up, following Chris into his house. He turned around to shush me. We quietly walked to his bedroom and he quickly closed his room door and locked it.

"You not worried about anyone winning a fight against you." Chris flipped on the light.

"You know, this is exactly how I pictured yo room, full of books and home work scattered all over your desk."

He kicked off his shoes. "Reading is my hobby,"

"Uh huh.." I just don't get it.

"Aside from the fact of books being informative, reading is entertaining and a good way to escape the realities of this insane world."

"So it's like your weed?"

He smiled. "Yeah, sort of."

"I get that," I started opening his drawers.

"Um, why are you going through my drawers?" He walked over to me and closed them back.

"Never had the opportunity to be in here, um just scoping out the scenery."

"Well, I'm not sure how my parents will take the news,"

"How long have you been gay?" I asked.

"Since I was about thirteen is when I knew."

"You don't think they speculate that you are?"

"I mean I'm sure they've heard things but they have never questioned me."

"Hmmm..."

"Hmm what?" He takes some chips from this basket of snacks on his desk. He sits crisscrossed on his bed.

"Maybe you should just come out and tell them,"

"Why?"

"Because they probably think if you never actually tell them, then it's not true."

"I love my dad, and I'm his firstborn son. My parents are a little older, my mom was pregnant with me at thirty nine, gave birth to me at forty."

"Damn, so they're almost sixty?"

"Yeah, so it's not always easy having conversations with them because they are so old school."

I laid across the bed and turned to face him. "Find a way...they don't get a pass because age. It's not like people weren't gay when they were younger."

"I know," he battled with this a lot I could tell.

I put my hand on his knee. "You got this, aaight?"

"Yes,"

"So this Derrick nigga..."

"He's just my co worker, he has a girlfriend, a pregnant one." He ate a few more chips.

"So, that could just be a cover up."

"Could be, but we're friends...plus who said I was over us?" He gazed down at me.

"Word?" I dug in his chip bag and he popped my hand.

"I have a entire basket full of snacks, get your own."

"So you still like me?"

He stopped eating. "Duh, and it's not my favorite thing to say, but I do."

"I cut things off to protect you from me doing something stupid. You one of the best people of not the best person I ever was with."