Chased by El Lewis Vesper Esquivel

Chapter 31

Automatically, my heart starts beating so wildly. I walked towards him without our eyes breaking, at tumigil lamang ako ng mga isang metro na lang ang layo namin sa isa’t-isa.

My eyes travelled to his face down to his neck and shoulder tattoos up to his arms. He is devilishly handsome with his overall looks. And with all the muscles that he got and developed, and just his overall good physique, hindi na ako magtataka kung baka isang araw nasa sa isang magazine cover na siya.

Kaagad na hinawakan ko ang magkabilang braso ko ng maramdaman ko ang pagtayo ng balahibo ko sa klase ng tingin na binibigay niya.

“Ummm…thank you for granting my request.” I swallowed hard and cleared my throat right after when he remained looking so serious at me.

He then stepped forward, making our distance much closer. Pigil ko ang hininga ko sa simple niyang ginawa.

We are not in a confined place and we are literally outside but I felt like my breathing will stop any moment from now. His presence was too much.

I wanna step backward so badly but my legs were ice cold in their place. Halos hindi ko maramdanan na nakatayo ako sa harapan niya.

He licked his lips and my eyes quickly followed it. His lips become redder.

“Yes…what do you wanna talk about?” He huskily responded.

I almost wanna close my eyes when I heard how soft and husky his voice was.

With my trembling hands, I reached out for the pockets of pyjamas.

“I…just wanna give this back to you.”

With my palms closed, I opened it right in front of him.

Automatically, he clenched his jaw hard upon recognizing what it was. His eyes suddenly erupted by a strong storm and it just shifted so quickly.

Napalunok ako ng malalim sa klase ng reaksiyon niya. I have never felt this nervous and anxious before, not even with my work or my runaways.

I need a stronger mind and heart to do this, dahil ito lang rin ang alam kong paraan para…tuluyan na kaming maging malaya sa isa’t-isa, o baka ako lang rin ang nakakaramdam ng ganito sa nakaraan natin.

Moving on is hard and up until now, dala-dala ko ang bigat at sakit ng nararamdaman ko para sa kanya. And I hope this time, it will heal me right after. I wanna have a proper sleep at night without thinking while my guilt is eating me alive. I wanted and dreamed about it so badly.

From the thing on my palms, he lifted his furious eyes on me.

“El…I just want to give this back and I…” Pakiramdam ko may nakabara sa lalamunan ko. “I…just wanna apologise for what happened years ago…” My eyes became watery as I uttered my words.

I need to control my words or else I'll break down right in front of him.

But then he looked at me ridiculously. “Why? What happened years ago?” Mariin at maanghang nitong responde.

I was quite taken aback. The emotion in his eyes intensified. I have never seen him this angry and hurt, tuluyan kong naibaba ang kamay kong nakalahad.

I held onto it tightly as I fist my palm.

I shook my head. “El…I just want us to move on, it’s been years and I…I just want us to clear our past.”

Mas lalong nagbaga ang galit sa kanyang mga mata, at tuluyan niyang nilamun ang pagitan namin.

I was rooted in my place as I watched him advance, ni hindi man lang ako makagalaw.

“You want to move on, huh? What if I don’t? What will you do?” He angrily spatted at me.