Broken Relations

I will stop never stop waiting for you, Isha

Shantanu's pov
Pune
Bhosale mansion
I woke up 6.00 am. I didn't put any alarm, because of the fever I had. I decided to not go to college and rest. But even while staying at home, I couldn't sleep till late. I had a heavy headache. I kept laying on the bed in the darkness, letting all my thoughts overtake me. Memorizing all the moments I have with Isha, is my favorite thing to do. I feel peace when I think about her. I wish she was here with me. If she would be here, she would be angry at me for not taking good care of myself as if it's my fault that I have gotten fever. I smiled remembering one such time.

Flashback
I came home from college and went straight to my room. I was feeling really dizzy and tired. I was getting fever. I just could feel it. When I came into the room, I saw Isha sitting there with 2 years old Ishan in her lap. Isha saw the exhaustion on my face.

"What happened? Why do you look so tired?"
"Oh nothing, I think I am getting a fever." Isha carefully putted our cute little Ishu on the bed, and walked up to me. She putted her hand on my head and face. "You think you are getting fever? You already have fever. You are hot."

Just as she realized what she said she put her hand on her mouth. I smiled at her cute antics. "I...I mean your body temperature is high."
"Yah yah, not that I was thinking something else, Isha," I said teasingly.

She ignored me and walked to the cupboard and took a towel. She gave it to me and I then took a bath. After I came out of the bathroom, Isha had already put a plate of fruits and a cup tea in the room. My heart just melted at the little efforts she did for me.

"Isha, what are you doing, I just have a little fever, I could go downstairs to eat." She looked up at me and said: "Tjup karo abhi tum, little fever. Kya kaha tha Maine tumhe, baarish mein mat jaw lekin sunte ho tum kisike, tumhe to bas apne manmaani hi karna hota hai hamesha, stupid man." (Shut up, I told you not to go in the rain, but no. You never listen, stupid man).

"Arreh lekin mere stupid woman, main baarish mein isiliye gayi thi kyuki I had some work outside nah, aur jaldi main I forgot the umbrella....accha baba sorry yaar, maaf kardo." I said while holding my ears. ( But my stupid woman, I had to go in the rain, because of some important work and I forgot my umbrella. Okay fine I am sorry , can you forgive me?)

Since the beginning we called each other stupid man and stupid woman, when one of us did a stupidity, like I did by going in the rain without an umbrella.

"Haa haa, ab bas tum yeh sorry hi boldo...accha thik hai, khana khaalo aur uske baad yaad se please dawa khaa Lena, main Ishu ko uske baby bed mein solati hoon, warna woh bhi bemar hojayega.."

( yes, sorry is the only thing you can say now..okay fine, eat and take the medicine after. I will put Ishu in his baby bed to sleep, otherwise he will get sick also).

I nodded and watched my wife, putting our cute little son on his baby bed, trying to make him sleep. They were both looking so cute. Both are my lifeline. My happy place. I ate the food and took the medicine.

After that I layed on the bed. I was so tired, my head was hurting so much. I slept lightly, when I heard Isha silently coming on the bed. She carefully came and sat beside my head. I felt her hand on my head. She was going to put balm on my head...O my cute caring wife. I pretended as if I didn't feel anything and she continued massaging my head...

Current time
I got emotional, while remembering how much she cared for me. I miss every single thing about her. Her attitude, her care, her love, her smile, her eyes, her anger, het arrogance...everything. i wish I could tell her how much I miss her.

How alone I feel, even though there are many people around me. I wish I could tell her how proud I was of her. Despite being alone in Ramtek, despite all the difficulties, she was a famous teacher now.