Broken Relations

Hurtful memories

Isha's pov:

"Tumhe agar apne aai baba ke saath rehna hai, toh tumhe Bhosale mansion chodke jaana hoga, aur Ishan ko bhi, tum Ishan ko apne saath nahi le ke jaa sakti ho, woh iss ghar ka waaris hai."

"Isha, beta, hame tumhare zaroorat hai, ham kaise rahenge, teri aai ko cancer hai, iss umar mein mujhse bhi kaam nahi hota..kaise afford karpaenge ham sab kuch."

"Khush toh tum bohot honge nah, mere bhai ko bilkul apne jaise bana diya hai tumne."

"Isha mujhe tumse pyaar hai, maine Shantanu aur tumhare shaadi isiliye karwayi, kyuki mujhe tumhe apne paas rakhna tha."

"Arreh yeh dekho, Dr. Isha Bhosale, famous teacher, but rehti toh akele hai, ghar parivaar na jaane sab kaha hai."

"Aai, please mujhe chodke mat jao, please aai, mat jao nah, please aai, mere paas raho..."

"Ishu!!!" I woke up in a rush, after the nightmare I had. There was sweat all over my face and neck. I heard my heart beating fast and it was in so much pain.

My head started to ache due to the nightmare and the way I woke up in a rush. I took deep breaths in and out in order to calm myself down. But it wasn't happening as much as I was trying. Every bad memory popped up in my mind.

My hands started to tremble, my breathing became faster. It was as if I couldn't take breath. As if someone would push me deliberately underwater and hold my head under the water so that I could not breath.

I started taking more of the deep breaths. I quickly stood up from bed. My legs felt weak as if I would fall down any moment.

I opened the bathroom door and began splashing water on my face. Again taking deep breaths, my hands were still shivering. I quietly sat down on the bathroom floor

I pulled my knees towards me and started hugging myself. I was shivering badly. Every memory just came into my mind, as much as I was trying to avoid thinking.

"Please Bappa, kripa kara, madad Karo.....pp..please..nn..nahi..s..sehen ho..raha h..ai."  I prayed quietly in my trembling voice, still hugging my knees and shivering.

This wasn't the first time I was getting a anxiety attack. But I got this after such a long time all of a sudden.

I kept stuttering please bappa madad kara.

I just hope that it would go soon. I can't. The tears were flowing down my eyes. My heart was beating fast. I was still trying to take in deep breaths in order to normalize my breathing.

I knew why this happened all of a sudden. As much as I needed to avoid them, my mind remembered the call I got yesterday, after talking to Ishan.

Flashback

I was at peace after talking to Ishan. I laughed at myself how I avoided talking about Shantanu. But somewhere I was happy that Shantanu was okay now, even though I was super angry and dissapointed.

Just as I was going to put my phone aside and sleep, my phone rang. It was an unknown number. I narrowed my eyes at the phone number, trying to memorize if I ever got a call from this number.

Realizing that I didn't, I just put the phone aside as I usually don't take up unknown numbers. The phone rang 2 or 3 times. I had enough, because it was disturbing me a lot.

"Namaskar, kaun hai?"

"Isha...main bolrahi hoon..Surekha Bhosale." I heard akkasaheb's voice. And my heart skipped a beat. Why did she call me?