ramblings

fell

I fell for you

That summer day

Before I even knew your name

It was our first day

In a new chapter of our lives

I fell for you

The boy with the book

A spot of peace

In a loud room

I never knew how far it would go

That you would break my heart

I fell for you

That sharp personality

Dry humor, but full of wit

Your friends mocked me

And still do

Even after I fell

After we fractured

We were so happy

For those months

We depended on the peace

The other would bring

But that was a year after

I fell for the boy

With the book

That hot August day

I don't regret falling

For him

I regret the aftermath

The pain he left

After we fell for each other

I fell so fast

And hit with a sickening thump

I fell with a hole in my heart

That he created

He wasn't the boy with the book

Not anymore

He had been something more

We had created great fantasies

Together

And with every word he spoke

I fell deeper into this web

This web he had caught me in

I wonder now

If that web was woven with lies

He created to hold me

To make me trust him

I did trust him

I more than trusted him

And so I fell

Fell back into the torture of reality

The pain that makes us human

Cut into me deeply

But I realize now

That the boy I fell for

Didn't truly exist

He was a lie within lies

He tore me

But I fell for him anyways

The human mind works in mysterious ways

It made me care for him deeply

I still fell for him

It was a girlish dream

That crushed me

Knocked me down

All because I fell for him

The boy with the book