𝐎𝐧𝐞 𝐬𝐡𝐨𝐭𝐬 (𝑴.𝑹. ~ 𝑴𝒂𝒕𝒕𝒉𝒆𝒐 𝑹𝒊𝒅𝒅𝒍𝒆)

My special boy

Y/N'S POV

Ugh, why, Mattheo, why? Why would you go out with your friends when I want to cuddle. But lucky me has a plan B.

My sweet and lovely  teddy bear Mattheo gifted me for my birthday. That teddy bear is literally bigger then me and so fluffy.

Perfect for me to cuddle with. I took it out of my closet. The only reason why my teddy bears in closet is that Mattheo is wayyy too jealous to see me cuddling with stuffed animals instead of my boyfriend.

Uhm, bro, you bought me that teddy bear. Did you expect for me to place it in the corner of me room for decoration. What?

I place my teddy bear next to me and I snuggle with him. Thank you, Mattheo for buying this. It even smells like Mattheo.

I cover us with a blanket as I smile. Imagine if this was acually Mattheo. This teddy bear can't replace him one bit.

Mattheo is simply the best and can't be replaced. He is one special boy. And I am so lucky to have him. I have no idea what would I do without him.

I love him so freaking much that I can not even explain it. I snuggle slowly feeling myself falling asleep.

MATTHEO'S POV

I was out with my friends. But all I could think about is Y/n. I wanted to hug her, kiss her, cuddle her. Nope, I can't be here anymore.

I need her. I need to hear her voice. To feel her lips on mine. "Hey, guys, I'm gonna head back. I'm just tired today. I'll hang out with you some other day, sorry" I say getting up.

"Fine, see ya dude" Theo says as I wave back leaving. I literally run to Y/n dorm. I'm just tired today and I really need her to comfort me.

Even just listening to her ramble about something that she finds exciting is enough for me to be happy again.

And cuddling with her is he thing that makes me a happiest person on the planet. Makes me feel loved. Makes me feel how I never felt before.

I open her door almost breaking them. I look at her. She's asleep. Is that someone next to her? THE HELL?

I immediately rush to her bed and take the covers off. Oh, it's just the big teddy bear I bought her. It's nice and fluffy.

I slightly smile. Why would she cuddle with this? She could've just told me. She just replaced me.

I know I don't deserve her but I just, I just thought maybe she'll settle for me. Guess I was wrong.

I was wrong. I really am replaceable. I mean what did I expect I'm nothing special.

Y/N'S POV

I hear my door open and someone walk in. I'm pretty sure it's Mattheo so I don't get up. I can't wait for him to get here and cuddle me. My special boy.

I hear my blanket be taken off and Mattheo taking my teddy away from me. Thinking he will get in and cuddle me I don't open my eyes.

But he doesn't. Instead of that I hear a chair next to my bed being dragged and someone sits on her.

"Why would she cuddle with you?" I hear Mattheo ask. With who is he talking to. I open my eyes a little just to see him with my teddy bear in his hands while his face looks stressed. Oh, my pretty boy.

"You know you're so much better then me. I am so jealous. Of you. Of a teddy bear. You know no matter what she will always cuddle you. While when she finally realizes she can pull someone much better then me and leaves me I won't have her anymore. I will not be able to be with her. To cuddle her. To kiss her. She is all I have and if I lose her I will have nothing. I am lucky she even looked in direction. But if I leave. She can replace me easily. She will find someone new. Someone better that can treat her better. She'll find someone who she will love more then me. And she'll still have someone to cuddle. Even if he doesn't want to cuddle she has you. But who wouldn't want to cuddle her. I came back here just to cuddle her. To be with her. To have her in my arms. You see she can have anyone she wants and I-I am lucky she settled for me in the first place. I had her for a while. And that's all I need. Knowing that I was hers and I will always be. Knowing that she was mine, maybe just shortly but she was still mine. And then she'll have someone new and I'll stare at her from a far still admiring every inch of her. I don't deserve her. She deserves way better. And I can't give her that. I tried. I gave her everything I have but what will happen when she finds someone that can give her way more without almost giving anything. I though maybe just maybe she would settle for me you know. I know that I can't give her the world like others cause I don't have that much. But that I will give everything, everything I have to her. Cause all I need is her. All I want is her. You know she's amazing and so so so special. My special girl. But I'm not special. I'm not even ordinary. Fuck that, I'm not even enough. So just the thought that she settled for me at least for a while is enough for me to live. Knowing I had her. But I won't. You understand. She will be able to replace me. But her. I will never be able to replace her. I will never be even able to try. At least I had her for a while. But now when she wants me to let her go. I will but if she ever comes back which she most definitely won't cause who would? Who would settle for less when they can have everything? But if she ever comes back I'll be here. With widely open  arms. Waiting. Waiting for her. I love her. More then anyone ever will. I love her more then she'll ever know." he says now crying.

Omg. My poor pretty boy that I love more then anything. How could he even think that? I could never replace him.

He's the best person in this universe who would want to replace him. I was now crying too.

I get up and walk over to him as his eyes widen. I hug him tightly. I feel his warm tears fall on my shoulder.

"I'm sorry, I'm so so sorry. I don't deserve you. I'll leave now if you want" he mumbles and my heart breaks. I pull away from the hug.

"No, no, no, don't ever think that. Ever again. You, you are my special boy. Mine. And I'm all yours. I will always be. And don't even start with that you don't desrve me cause that's shit. You deserve to be loved. And I love you so freaking much. So don't you dare ever even thinking I will leave you. I am never leaving. I love you a lot. My special boy" I say holding onto his cheaks as we both cry.

He hugs me tightly "I'm sorry. I love you. I love you so much" he mumbles. "Good now cuddle me cause this teddy bear can't even try replace you. You're way warmer, cuter and sweeter." I say kissing him on the lips and then pulling him with myself on the bed.

He nods slightly chuckling from tears. We lay there snuggling with each other. I slowly start falling asleep. The last thing I hear is "I love you, my girl"