Beyond the Camera

Chapter 15

4 Years Ago

Seungmin P.O.V

I bent over as I wheezed. I tried to catch my breath but it wasn't coming to me. I felt a hand slid over my back and rub it. I looked up at the person. We'd been a group for years already but Chan still hadn't changed. Felix smiled down at me. He was heaving too and had a frown on his face.

"Seungmin, are you okay?" It took everything for me to smile as I nodded.

"I'm okay." Felix's frown didn't disappear.

"Seungmin, get up. We have more to do before we can go. We don't have time to relax." I shivered at Chan's cold voice. I thought he might have changed after we debuted but he hadn't. He was colder now. It was basically impossible to talk to him." I stood back up and walked over to him.

"Hyung, can I have a word with you?" Chan raised a brow. "A private word." He sighed.

"Okay. Everyone, go get some water. I need to have a word with Seungmin." Everyone nodded before bowing slightly and leaving. Chan didn't say another word until the door was closed. "What is it, Seungmin?" I flinched at his voice and moved back a few steps. He stepped closer to me. I kept walking backward until my back hit the wall. Chan smirked. He stood so close to me that I could smell the cigarettes on his breath. His hand lifted to my shoulder and he slid it down my arm slowly. It took everything in me not to shiver. The glint in his eyes told me that he was enjoying it. He liked scaring me. That was terrifying and of itself.

"H-Hyung." I cursed at myself for stuttering.

"What is it, Seungmin" I took a breath.

"You're working us too hard. If you continue this, someone will get hurt. I get that you want perfection. We all do but we can only be one hundred percent if no one gets hurt." A quiet whimper slipped out of my mouth when his nails dug into my sides. His smirk widened.

"Is that so?" I nodded, unable to speak. "Seungmin, you're so pretty like this." Another whimper slipped from my lips at his words. His usual cold eyes were dark with hunger.

"Hyung, please." His hand paused. He frowned but didn't move his hands.

"Please what?" My hands shook as they moved to his.

"Don't do this to me. Please. I can't take it. One minute you're hurting me and the next you're touching me so gently that it makes me shake. You're breaking me. I can't do this."

"Seungmin." I looked up at him. His voice sounded broken and his face was pale. "I'm sorry." I shook my head. For the first time since I met him, he broke. He shattered into a million pieces. He collapsed to the floor. I'd known Chan for a while. He wasn't one to show emotions. He never let people in. I let him be physical with me but when it began to become more for me, I cut it off immediately. I couldn't allow myself to fall for someone like him. My life had already been shattered. I couldn't do it again. I slid down onto the floor and wrapped my arms around his neck.

"It's okay, Hyung. It's okay. You're gonna be okay." that'd been the first time he clung to me like I'd disappear from his world. I lifted his chin gingerly. He was crying.

"Hyung, listen to me. This can't go on. You have to get better. You have to change. We all love and care about you." I pressed my hand to his cheek. "I love you and care about you. It breaks me to watch you hurt like this. You're destroying yourself." His voice shook as he spoke.

"Please don't leave me. I need you." I smiled and wiped away his tears.

"Then get better. Change. If not for them or yourself, do it for me. Otherwise, I will. I will disappear and not come back."

"I'm sorry." I shook my head.

"It's okay. Just get better." He pressed his hand to mine.

"I will become worthy of you." I nodded.

"I know you will." Chan pulled away when the door opened. Leeknow walked through the door and stopped. He raised a brow at our position.

"You guys okay?" Chan and I nodded.

"We're fine," I said. I stood and held out my hand for Chan. He took it and raised himself. Leeknow walked further into the room and sighed.

"I don't know what's going on between you too but it needs to be fixed before our fan meet tomorrow." Chan and I nodded and glimpsed at each other. Chan needed to hear those words and I prayed they'd get through to him.

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Thanks for reading this chapter. I hope everyone liked it. Things are about to go to shit. Prepare yourself. Get some rest. Bye, lovelies.

-Thea