You were the first man
To show me what I deserve
The first to love me
Setting up future
Expectations of what love
Is supposed to be
I had everything
A roof, food on the table
And education
There are a few things
That you failed at nurturing
Like loving myself
Am I really doomed
To be unsuccessful in
Life and to be loved
Am I that retard
Who deserves talking down to
Cornered in my tears
Reminded often
What an embarrassment that
I grew up to be
Are you ashamed of
All my failures that you
Fail to see there's more
I will never be
Where you were at when you were
The same age as me
You fail to see that
I try so hard to be good
Enough for you and
Enough for others
I do not see my value
What I see is a
Fucked up daughter that's
Always failing to be the
Perfect image and
A giving friend that
Gives too much without getting
The same energy
A unloveable
Partner, hard to accept and
Treat with tender hands
I feel I have to
Fight and beg for someone to
Simply just love me
If this love is hurt
I don't want it anymore
Maybe I'm better
At being alone
Not needing anyone to
Make me feel loved right
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PoetryA series of personal haikus filled with love, heartbreak, trauma, life lessons, and in the moment spontaneous poems. TW: Some suicide & assault. I'll mark them with ⚠︎︎ in the title. Just skip them if you're not comfortable with them.
