⚠︎︎ Why Say No ⚠︎︎

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Might as well say yes
I wouldn't want to ruin
The mood you are in

My no I don't want
The back door to be explored
Won't be respected

Anyways you'll try
Why am I crying like this
It isn't that bad

I have no reason
You say irritatingly
But the discomfort

Of being below
As you enjoy yourself and
The tears just come out

I've said no and no
Repeatedly that it is
Unless to express

It isn't the first
That I felt obligated
It won't be the last

And after all this
I'll get food with you feeling
This heavy burden

While you will go on
About your day normally
And I regret this

But I've been told that
This isn't actually
Rape you did to me

Because I didn't
Fight you off of me but I
Felt that I couldn't

Because you would say
I ruined the mood and then
Give me the coldness

Lack of affection
Because I didn't deserve
It after saying

No I don't want this
No this is making me hurt
But it isn't rape

This is what a good
Girlfriend does to make sure her
Boyfriend is happy

And no I don't want
Another girlfriend with you
But you persist and

I will force myself
To try to give you what you
Want that I don't want

And you will say that
I'm not trying hard enough
But am I enough

Isn't that why you
Accepted those nudes and let
Those girls flirt with you

You say it isn't
Sharing but rather it is
Expanding the love

That you and I have
But we both know how it ends
I am crying and

You are frustrated
Because I am not being
A good girlfriend when

I say no to you
You say this is what we need
To stay together

I needed to stop
Going out with friends too much
You never liked them

And I know it is
Terrible that I went to
Go see her because

I saw her last week
Once a week is excessive
And that is why you

Had to scream at me
Over the phone frustrated
If I ignored it

I wouldn't want to
See the paragraphs that you
Would send to me but

She was helping me
Clean and organize my room
She was my best friend

Forget going out
I went out too much to you
But it was the mall

And I wasn't dressed
Like a whore when you went off
About my outfit

I apologized
I am so sorry that I
Kept on messing up

I am sorry that
I could not meet your standards
I apologized

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