Beyond Our Control

Chapter 14

 She immediately sees the resemblance between them now. The light fair skin that looks like snow on Faye, so beautiful and flawless. Dr. Novak has it too, yet it looked frightening on her instead that Kenna couldn't tell they both had it before.

Faye reached down to pull a wheat.

Her pale hands and long slender fingers. Dr. Novak has the same exact hands, just slightly bigger and scarier.

Her hair, ash blonde, the one Kenna found so fascinating. She can even see Dr. Novak's resemblance in that now. She can see the light colored pearl blonde on Dr. Novak that also managed to form a little in Faye's hair.

Her small cute cheekbones that sticked out slightly almost looked exactly like Dr. Novak's skeleton cheeks.

She wished the resemblance could just end there, but it didn't.

Faye mumbled something toward Annika, for her to get the wheelbarrow.

Kenna can even hear partly of Dr. Novak in Faye's voice.

But one thing still remained that's still only Faye's and not Dr. Novak's. Faye's eyes, the deep deep blue. Like a world of ocean. That remained. But maybe that was all. She's her daughter after all.

"Kenna? Are you daydreaming during work?" Faye mocked in a smiley voice.

"What? No." Kenna quickly went back to pulling the wheats.

Faye patted her back playfully like she had done during the past few weeks.

Kenna flinched and almost jumped away. She didn't mean to. It just happened.

Faye looked at her, confused. And the slightest pain in her eyes. A hurtful look flashed across her face but it disappeared before Kenna could make sure it wasn't just her imagination.

"Sorry, I think I'm just a little tired." She looks away, knowing that the more she sees Faye the more she felt the blood in her twirl. She still felt something for Faye. She knows it. But there's something else now. Was it disgust? Fear?

Annika bops her head up from her work. "Tired? Oh no, the last time you were tired it did not go well." She rushed toward Kenna and helped her sit down. Even though, physically, Kenna was fine. Mentally? Maybe not so great.

Faye rushed next to Kenna too, sitting down next to her. She acknowledges a nod at Annika and she went back to work. Sitting there together, Kenna felt her heart beating faster than normally again. The eagerness of a feeling and yearning to pull Faye into a hug tightly. But that was all before she knew that Faye was Dr. Novak's daughter. She can't love her daughter. She's not supposed to feel these things! Her pills are supposed to stop this from happening. Why is it not working? Why is she like this?

Faye placed a hand gently on top of Kenna's. She stopped shaking. She didn't even realize she was shaking. Faye's skin felt nice and cool under the hot weather breeze. Her palm felt soft, maybe like snow, but Kenna never felt snow before. But maybe it felt like this. She remembered the first time she saw her photo, how she wondered if her skin felt cold like the paleness of her skin. It does feel cold. But whenever they're close, everything feels hot and warm. The feeling is unexplainable. Faye is unexplainable. But none of this is right. It's just so wrong. She's Dr. Novak's daughter. And she's a girl. Not even in fairytales were there a girl that loved a girl. No books or anything talked about this. Everything that's happening between them is not right. They need to be fixed. This needs to be fixed.

But all of this just felt so perfect. The way their hands fit into each other's. The way Faye looks into her eyes every time. The sweet scent of Faye that lingers onto her. The way their eyes meet even when they're not together. It just all felt so...right.