Incision | Rilaya

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rowan left the group chat on Twitter two times today, this is so upsetting 😭

Girl Meets Up

[ R i l e y ]

"Then she walked away, after showing me her wrist" I sniffled, as I finished off the story. Farkle kept his eyes on me the whole time, "What do I do?" I wiped my tears.

"Do something big, to show her that you actually do care." Farkle suggested, wiping away a few more tears that were streaming down my cheeks with his thumb.

"Like what?"

"Write her a song"

~

I sat on my bed. I held the pencil tightly, somehow convinced that keeping a grip on a piece of wood would help me think.

I looked down at my blank piece of paper, and sighed.

Maybe I should just give up.

No, Riley you can't. This is Maya we're talking about.

If this was Farkle, sure, maybe you could give up. Lucas? Definitely.

But this is Maya, this is your angel.

She wouldn't give up on me, so why should I?

"Think Riley, think." I muttered, laying down on my back. I stared up at the ceiling, as I bit the pencil. I watched as the ceiling fan circled. I followed the blades with my stare, and got dizzier by the minute.

Sigh. Riley, you're hopeless.

~

"Maya!!" I knocked on her door loudly and vigorously.

I banged the door so hard until it began rattling. I could hear Maya moving around inside.

"I, I wrote you something" I whimpered, taking slow steps into her bedroom. The walls were a beige colour. One side of the wall was splattered with Maya's paintings, and the other, fillered with notes, and journal entries.

I looked up, at the chandelier that was hanging over my head, it's diamonds glimmering in the light.

"Are you sure you're not going to turn back to Farkle?" Maya spat, walking over to her bed. I watched carefully, as she reached over to the wall behind her bed, and ripped off a note.

"No, I wrote this for you." I insisted, walking closer to her.

"Lucas wrote me this..." she handed me the note. I took it into my own trembling hands, and I looked up at her, "Open it Riles"

"O-okay" I was still shaking. I got weak at my knees. They felt as if they had turned to jelly, and I was going to just collapse to the ground- this was the kind of affect Maya had on me.

She made me weak, yet so strong at the same time.

"Dear Maya Penelope Hart" I started reading the first line on the piece of paper. Lucas' handwriting was unorganised, and messy, which showed that he didn't really care for anything while he was writing this, "I hope you read this, because it's important that you know this; everyone wants you dead"

I glanced up from the paper, and averted my attention towards her. Her lips were pursed, her eyes were filling up with water droplets, and she fell into my arms, sobbing loudly.

I held her tightly, and stroked her honey-blonde hair.

"I don't want you dead. I need you here with me" I whispered, in reassurance.

"I... I don't know if I should believe you" her voice was still weak, from crying. But I heard her clearly.

"I wrote you a song. It's called up"

🔺

yes, 'Up' by Olly Murs ft Demi Lovato. just bc that song is really important to me, and it makes me really happy :)

you don't have to read the part below but you can if you like

× just a little rant ×

I have so much to say, you have no idea.

First of all, even if I'm ranting, it's not about the fandom on wattpad, it's the problem with the fandom on twitter.

Let's think of twitter as a school- horrible reference, but just go along with it for now- There will be the 'cool kids' (which in this case are the bigger accounts), and there will be the 'not so cool kids' (which in this case are the smaller accounts)

Let's just say each fandom is a different grade, and the idols/whatever your fandom is based off of are the 'teachers'

Let's just say the cool kids are the teacher's pets, which means they're one of the idols' faves, and bc of this they think they're way better than everyone else in the fandom, so they go around dragging people and hating on them.

Just because you're more popular, and you're one of rowbrina's faves doesn't mean you're any better than us.

I mean, we're all here in this fandom to support Rowbrina, so why are you hating on everyone else that isn't in your little circle of cool kids?

(I'm actually not done, bc there's soooo much anger in me right now, but I'll leave it here, before I go overboard and flip a table)

Sorry if one of you read it, and get offended. Since you can express your feelings without it being a 'hate comment' then so can the rest of us.

But overall, I love the fandom, and I love you guys, I just had to let it out :)

On that happy note;

twitter- rowftbrini
instagram- rowyorkcity

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- Rowan 💘