Incision | Rilaya

twenty seven ♡

someone told me that a certain song was important to them and now every time it comes on, i think of them and it makes me really happy (:

Girl Meets Broken Hart

[ R i l e y ]

With that text that I had just received, I couldn't let anything else occupy my mind. As per usual, all I could think about was Maya. Logically, I knew there was no way Maya sent me that text. But, even with Maya gone, I still had a hope burning inside of me like a fire, and it wouldn't be put out anytime soon.

Sure, Maya was right about the disadvantages of having high hopes, and how there's a bigger chance for disappointment, but sometimes you need a little bit of hope, even if its just a speck, to keep you from going corrupt.

I walked to school alone as I had been doing for quite a while now. Even though Maya wasn't physically here, walking to school with me, she was right beside me every step of the way. I'd usually get to school in a good 10 minutes or so. It was always a very lonely 10 minutes.

Sometimes I miss my dad. I miss having him teach Maya, Lucas, Farkle and I. Honestly, our lives being in the core objective of his lessons made going to school a lot more desirable than having to learn aboht somethings other than ourselves. It seems selfish, but I missed it.

I missed Lucas as well, and who he was when I first met him. He was a good guy before he became corrupt.

When we were all still attending John Quincy Adams, we were kings. We practically took the world by storm together. I missed having that. Here at this new school, nobody knew who I was. I sat alone at lunch, had no one to partner up with in class, and in moments like that, I missed Maya the most. Because I knew that if she was still here, we'd be kings again.

"Good morning everyone," my teacher— who sadly wasn't my father— announced. Beside her, stood a girl with honey blonde hair, which I was assuming was our new classmate. "This is Sabrina,"

She turned to the girl, Sabrina apparently, and whispered some things to her. She took a seat beside me, taking up some of my table space as she placed her books and binders down.

She held her hand out for me to shake, I'm guessing.

"I'm Sabrina. And you?"

"R-Riley," I managed to spit out. I grabbed her hand, and it seemed strangely familiar. It felt as if this was Maya's hand I'm holding.

But I knew it couldn't be true. This couldn't possibly be Maya.

"I love it," she smiles. And turns to face the front of the classroom.

In many aspects, this new Sabrina girl was a lot like Maya. For starters, the both of them possessed the same honey blonde hair, and the ocean blue eyes. Looking at Sabrina felt like looking at Maya, and it stabbed me in the heart every time I reminded myself that she wasn't here.

Meanwhile, Sabrina was incredibly friendly and fun, and I didn't want to cut off contact with her solely because she reminded me of Maya.

Sabrina and I had most of our classes together, which gave us plenty of time to bond and get to know each other.

"For most of my life, it had been my dad and I," she was telling me about her family life, and it reminded me so much of Maya, more than you know, "I had a sister, until my parents had a divorced and my mom took her away from me. I was really young at that time,"

"It must've been hard," I said, not knowing what else to respond with.

"Yeah, it is," she said, but the following words that slipped out of her mouth turned my day upside down, "What hurts even more, is I didn't get to see her one last time before she was brutally murdered,"

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