Not Izuku, Not Anymore

Conflict Of Interest

Deku felt awkward as he held Ochaco in his arms on his couch, he could see her looking at the bloodstains on it, he could see how uncomfortable she was in his house, but he also wasn't sure what to do about it. Couldn't really hang out in her house. He huffed, looking at her eyes as he tried to ignore how uncomfortable she looked. She was never going to love him, not the way she loved Kacchan, and it made him angry. Everytime she looked at him with fear in her eyes, he wanted to give her something to be afraid of, he wanted to hit her, but he didn't. He knew he couldn't hit her. His hand gently rested on her face,

    "Please don't cry." He whispered, pressing a kiss to her forehead "I love you, mochi, what do I need to do to make you feel better?"

    "I don't know." She murmured

    Deku sighed "What if we get a new place to live?" he murmured

    Ochaco looked at him sadly, "You would do that?"

    Deku hesitated, had he really just said that? He sighed and winced

    "Yes. if that is what you need. I could begin looking for a place where we could reside together." He murmured, he would need to keep this house for a while, get rid of some of the things in the basement. But he could begin looking for a home with Uraraka as he disposed of those annoyances. He kissed her cheek softly, he would get better. He would.

    "I love you, Uraraka." he murmured    

    Ochaco hesitated, "I love you, Deku."

    Deku laughed to himself as he stood up, he had her, but now that she was beginning to see who he truly was, he was losing her. Of fucking course.

    Ochaco looked at him with a sigh.

    "I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm doing-I'm doing my best, but this is a lot."

    He sighed "It's me. You're going to deal with it, or you're going to have to leave."

    Ochaco nodded sadly "I know." she murmured, though she felt a little trapped, she had told Katsuki she loved Deku, could she ask him for help if things went wrong here?

    Deku sighed, was he really so much worse than Katsuki? He couldn't imagine Katsuki was kind and loving.

    Ochaco frowned, standing up, slipping her arms around him and huffing, Deku sighed in return, hugging her back.

    "I love you so much." He murmured, "you make me want to get better, but it's not happening overnight. Can you be patient?"

    Ochaco looked up at his eyes sadly with a nod of her head

    "I can." she murmured

    Deku smiled at her, looking down at her and kissing her forehead.

    "That's my mochi." he said affectionately, slipping his arms around her and closing his eyes with a sigh. He had a full night planned, he considered putting her to sleep so that he could meet with his associates in peace. He sighed, no. She was Uraraka, he could not treat her like an annoyance. He needed her to stay.

     Ochaco looked at him sadly, "What are you thinking about?"

    "I have to work tonight."

    "Oh?"

    "With people who will not want to see you. It won't be a very safe place for my mochi."

    Ochaco frowned, "I can go back to my apartment tonight then."

    Deku nodded with a huff "thank you, Mochi. That means a lot to me. I'll come and get you after, okay? Or I can stay at your place."

    Ochaco nodded her head with a soft smile "I would like that."