Not Izuku, Not Anymore

Fuck It

Deku was trying to seem intimidating, he needed Toga to know that he hadn't softened, he would still kill her if she laid a hand on anyone he loved. He drove Ochako and Toga back to his house. He sighed when he looked over at Ochako and noticed how close she was to the door of the car, her seatbelt wasn't fastened like she was preparing to tuck and roll.. His hand moved to her back and tears threatened to fall from his eyes as she jumped at his touch. How could he forget? Ochako was afraid of him. His hand pulled away quickly. He wanted to yell at her, but he didn't think that would improve the situation so he just got them to the house. He sighed, going around to get the door for her. He sighed as he hugged her and felt her stiff in his arms what was going on? He kissed the top of her head as he lead her inside. His expression softening for the first time since he picked up Toga

"Mochi?" He murmured, "What's wrong?"
"I'm scared!" Ochako whimpered

"I thought you and Toga-"
"I'm scared of you!" Ochako whimpered

Deku's heart broke, he shook his head, he had gotten too comfortable with her. Of course she would hurt him. "What did I do now?" He asked coldly

"You've been looking at me like you want to eat me since you picked me up from Katsuki's house! You insisted I go there! I-"

Deku frowned, feeling like an idiot, he shook his head "I'm trying to seem threatening around Toga! I don't want her thinking there's any chance she can hurt you or the babies."

Ochako frowned "Toga won't hurt me.." she said it, but she didn't sound sure.

"Exactly. Let me be your guard dog. Okay? None of this hostility is directed at you."

"For now." she mumbled

Deku glared at her, did she want him to be a monster? He could be, he shook his head, he needed to calm down. He huffed, thinking about his babies as the woman he loved cowered away from him. He shook his head, he didn't know what to do with his feelings, he couldn't lash out at her, he didn't want to scare her more, but the fact that she saw him this way was devastating.

"I love you." he whimpered, looking at her sadly, "Why don't you trust me?"

"I love you too.. but.. I don't really know anything about you, Izuku. I'm just finding out that you are the ex that did all those horrible things to Toga and I-"

"Toga wasn't exactly the most innocent either."
"You really broke her heart."
"And she broke mine!" Deku replied angrily, "fuck you! Didn't Kacchan ever hurt you?"

Ochako frowned "I just.. I held her as she cried over you, Deku.. I need time to reconcile that. Also, if you could leave someone who you loved for years in the cold like that.."
"Clearly I'm capable of abandoning you and my children?" Deku asked, cocking his head to the side, he needed to get away from her, but he couldn't leave her alone with Toga. He looked at her with a frown, hands in fists at his side. Ochako saw how upset she had made him, kissing him gently.

"Everything is okay." She murmured she frowned when he pulled away from her and wiped his mouth with his forearm. Turning around and looking at Toga with a sigh. He looked at Ochako again, kissing her deeply.

"What are you doing?" Ochako murmured

Deku sighed, "I love you, but I want to hit you so I was going to fuck you."
Ochako frowned "Does that sound healthy to you?"

"No. it's all I can think of to make me less angry."
"Why don't you go for a walk?"

"can't leave you here with Toga."
"Go for a walk with Toga. Or maybe all three of us can talk about what happened between you two."
Deku rolled his eyes, he liked his idea better, "fine. We can talk." He turned around with a sigh