Not Izuku, Not Anymore

Stuck In The Middle With You

Katsuki sat on his couch, phone in his lap, head in his hands. He was angry with himself for letting Deku's words hurt him. He didn't seem like he planned to hurt Ochaco or the babies, so he should be fine, right? He just, he hadn't thought about the idea of his baby having a different last name than him.. He could handle his kid having Uraraka as a last name he supposed, it would still hurt. The idea of his child having the last name Midoriya, though, that couldn't happen. He wouldn't let it. Surely he could talk Ochaco into giving the children her last name at least, right? He just.. He didn't want his child taking a different man's last name. It would look bad, and it would confuse the kid. He sighed, burying his face in his hands. He wanted to tell people, talk to them about this, but he knew Ochaco wasn't ready for people to know, hell he wasn't ready for people to know. He wasn't sure who he could trust.

He stood up, no point sitting around and moping. Nothing he could do about the situation he was in, no one he could confide in. He might as well go for a walk or something. He left his house, hoping he wouldn't be recognized, but knowing that he would be. Maybe he should just go back inside, he wasn't sure he could pretend everything was fine if he ran into anyone. Fuck it. He was going to be in a shitty mood for a while, possibly forever. He had given decades of his life to the citizens of Japan. They could suck it up! He decided to walk get some food, he wasn't hungry, but he knew he needed to eat something. He managed to get to the food truck and felt a slight pang in his chest as he looked over and saw the cart where he had bought mochi for Ochaco a few weeks ago. He sighed, he had been an idiot. If he had stayed away from her, maybe she wouldn't be in the arms of a monster. He didn't let himself cry, he was in public. He huffed, thanking the server for the food, he knew he had been rude to them, but he was just too emotionally drained to talk to them like he should. He gave them a generous tip before deciding to walk back to his house. He wanted to go to Ochaco's apartment, to talk to her, but every time he thought that he was hit again by the realization that she wasn't there. He wanted to go to her, talk to her about this, she always helped him get through the hard shit. It made sense that the hardest thing would be losing her, than, didn't it. He couldn't expect her to always be there. He had always known that, logically, but he supposed a little part of him had always assumed she would always be there if he needed her. He couldn't call her. He knew that. He just hated it.

He sighed, he missed her, he had missed her before, but this was different. It was over. It wasn't his own stubbornness keeping them apart, she wasn't even safer without him. She was in danger, pregnant with his child, and out of his grasp. He never messed up on missions, but he had messed up here, wound up screwing up his life, his kids life and the life of the woman he loved in one thrust. He groaned, getting himself through his door where he turned on his tv so he could sulk at it. He turned on a show about allmight, it made him think about Deku so he turned it off, and just decided to lay face down on is couch.

*****

Deku smiled softly as he stepped out of his lab and saw Ochaco, he smiled at her softly, slipping his arms around her and running her fingers through her hair.
"Just calling Kacchan."

"Why?"

"Wanted to ask about the babies."

Ochaco frowned, looking at the floor, she would have to keep an eye on him. She wasn't convinced he was off the idea of killing Bakugo.

"How did he seem?"
"Pissed. But he always seems pissed." Deku replied with a shrug. He looked at her with a smile, getting on his knees and pressing his lips to her tummy.

"I love all three of you." he whispered, glancing up at Ochaco's eyes and smiling genuinely, things were going to get better. He wasn't sure how he was going to pay for twins, his girlfriend was probably going to lose her career as soon as the paternity of her children was revealed to the public, and with him having to quit working for anyone who may try to hurt Ochaco. Money might be tight for a little while, but everything would be fine. Ochaco smiled back at him, kissing his head gently as she ran her fingers through Deku's hair.

"We love you too." She murmured with a yawn. Deku kissed the top of her head, he stood up, leading her back to the couch.

"What do you want to watch?" Deku asked softly "Are you hungry?"

Ochaco nodded "a little.. Some soup would be nice."

Deku nodded, looking at her and sighing.

"Are you okay?" Ochaco murmured
"Well.. I'm just not sure what I am going to do for money since, I really cannot have a lot of my clients around here anymore, because you live here and we're going to have to start preparing for twins, and I'm not sure how your career will fare after news breaks about you and I."

Ochaco nodded, she had thought about it, but she was trying not to because stress was bad for the babies. "I have  some savings, I've lived frugally for most of my life, we should be able to afford at least some of the expenses, but yeah, we are both going to need to start considering different career paths. She sighed, it made her sad, but she had gotten herself into this situation."

Deku shrugged "We'll figure it out." He smiled, kissing her gently she nodded kissing him back with a sigh. She tried not to think about it, she was worried about her babies having a childhood like her own though. She knew Katsuki would provide for his blood, but she didn't want one of her children to fair better than the other. He hoped he would understand, but she wasn't sure. She supposed Deku seemed to be doing well financially, if by scary means.. She wanted her kids to have her moral code, but she wasn't sure what that was anymore. She had fucked a villain because he had a nice smile. She looked at Deku with a sigh, he was so happy, and she wished she was as excited as he was. Deku went to the couch and turned on a show about Katsuki. Ochaco shook her head.

"No Deku."

"I just think his baby should-"

"His baby will learn about him from him." She was pretty sure Deku was trying to assess Katsuki's weaknesses. Deku huffed

"Fine. What are we going to do anyways? Because I know Katsuki isn't going to want me near his-"
"you two are going to learn to get along. I-I want both of the babies to have both of you in their lives so that I don't have to worry about one of them having more opportunities than the other one.. You can both offer the babies different things and.. I want both of them to have all of those things."
Deku frowned, but he nodded, that made sense, and yeah both of these babies should have the same opportunities, he just thought it was unlikely to happen.
"what can Kacchan offer that I can't? He's never going to be around! He's impolite! He is going to prioritize strangers over his child! I don't understand why you want him there!"

"Because I do! I think his child deserves to know him I think he deserves to know them."

"Fine. But just remember that you're mine. I don't want him to touch you."

Ochaco sighed, looking at her knees, she didn't know what to say to that. "I am your girlfriend, not your possession, but Katsuki will respect that. I'm sure he will."

"If he wants to keep his hands he will."

"Is he allowed to touch your baby?"
Deku forced a smile, "of course. I plan to hold his baby, s-so yeah. Of course he can." Katsuki would be dead before he got the opportunity.
Ochaco frowned, looking at her feet and trying her best to believe him. Deku kissed her gently, holding her in his arms. He pulled her closer, kissing her deeply.

"I love you Uraraka. I'm going to do good, I promise."

Ochaco nodded her head, kissing him back gently as she held him. "I know." she said softly, feeling Deku's lips on hers, holding him against her as she closed her eyes and let him lay her down on the couch. Wasn't like she could get more pregnant. Deku smiled at her, she had been sleepier since she got pregnant, he was sure she would want a nap after they had sex, so he could research how to kill Dynamite while she was asleep.