Not Izuku, Not Anymore

Uncertain Future

Deku was quiet as he dissolved the body of his old friend in acid. He hadn't loved her, but he had liked her.. Maybe he could have felt more if he had given her the time of day, than he wouldn't be stuck in a hell of his own making. He sighed, he loved Uraraka, but she would never love him back, and he couldn't blame her. He was a monster, it was something he had proudly called himself for years, but now, he winced at it. He wanted to be a good father. He wanted his kids to love him.. It was probably his last chance to be loved by anyone, without the Stockholm syndrome thing he was beginning to worry was going on with Uraraka. Maybe he should just let her go to Katsuki. He would take better care of her, he would raise her children to be something she would be proud of.. He didn't deserve to lay his acid covered hands on anything as innocent as a child who was half Uravity. He had already tainted it with his malevolent genes, he really shouldn't stick around to make sure his poisonous seed choked out the heroic one. He sighed, it was one thing when he was fucking with adults who wronged him. These were kids. He didn't want his child to end up as unhappy as he was, he certainly didn't want his baby to end up as unhappy as he made Uraraka. He sighed as he watched the woman he could have loved, hypothetically, dissolve before going upstairs and looked at Ochako with contempt. She hung up the phone and looked at Deku sadly.

"Who were you talking to?"
"Katsuki."
"Why?"

"He got an alert that someone tried to break in. He was worried."

Deku frowned, "Maybe you should go live with him. I'm having doubts about this situation."

"What does that mean?"
"I no longer want to be a father. I think you should go live with Katsuki. As he seems interested in raising the brats. I no longer am. It's getting in the way of my work and personal relationships." His resolve was good, almost as good as it was before he met her, but when she started to cry he felt it begin to crumble.
"What do you mean? What did I do? I-I'm sorry! Please don't leave me!"

"What?" Deku was completely disarmed, he hadn't expected her to react this way "If you're worried about protection, Kacchan is very capable of keeping you safe. He'll be a great father. you can tell people I brainwashed you. Took advantage of you. I'm sure everyone will believe you."
"I don't want Katsuki to take care of me. I don't want to raise your baby without you. I'm sorry. I love you. I only love you!" Ochako whimpered

Deku frowned, he was crumbling. No. No! He couldn't cry, he was trying to do something good for once in his life. "I don't love you." He whimpered, "I never loved you. I just wanted to ruin Katsuki's life. And Now I've done it. He's going to have to raise my kid along side his own. Until the time comes for me to kill him, than you'll be a single mother. Sorry about that. Collateral damage. I trust you to take care of my child anyways."

The words 'I don't love you' burned in Ochako's ears as she looked at her belly as she sobbed, she didn't know what was going on. Deku had been so sweet until that woman came to see them. He must have really loved her.

"I'm sorry for your loss Dekukun, but is she really worth throwing away your relationship with your child?"
"This has nothing to do with her. I don't remember her name."
"Than what is going on? I know you wanted these babies."

"Get out!" Deku whimpered, "Get out. Get out. Get out." he felt tears streaking his face, "Damn it Uraraka! I try to do one good thing! And you ruin it!"
"Good thing? Abandoning your family is a good thing?"
"It's the only way I can think of to keep you happy. We separate and you go back to hero work. Tell people I attacked you get back with Katsuki and he raises our children to be heroes. Not monsters like me."

Ochako frowned "I don't want to leave you. I love you. I-I'll do anything to stay with you, okay? I won't lose you."

"Than you're an idiot. Ocha.. You're unhappy."
"Yeah, but.. I'll adjust."
"We need to think about our babies. Ochako. I am not fit to be a father. I'm going to mess our kids up."
"I don't care. I-"
"You don't care? Why am I not surprised?" Deku said with a laugh, "you don't even think about our kids! You want to start putting yourself in danger doing hero work again! You don't care about our babies! Not as much as you care about random strangers!"

"Our kids would be fine! I would be careful!"

"Ocha. I don't think you understand how much danger you're in. It's not like it was."
"Katsuki said the same thing! I'm pregnant, I'm not injured! You two just-"
"I love you Uraraka! But you need to start thinking about those kids. You are starting to show, everyone knows what's in there! I don't want you outside! Let alone outside fighting crime!" Deku sighed, "If you're worried about money, you can find another job."
"But I worked so hard for my career."
"And than you had unprotected sex with a villain." Deku sighed "consensual unprotected sex with a villain."

Ochako sighed, "I just-"
"Look. We're going to see your friends soon we'll see how they feel about it, okay?"
Ochako nodded sadly "okay." She whimpered

Deku wrapped his arms around her "I'm sorry Ocha." He sighed, "I promise I won't leave you. I just.. I see how unhappy you are, and it upsets me. I-I'm worried you wouldn't be with me if I didn't get you pregnant. That girl said she liked me, and it-it make me think about how different my life was before I met you and I was worried, and while I was worrying, I figured I might as well worry about my kid while I was at it. I-I don't want my baby to end up like me. I thought Kacchan would do a better job, so I decided to kick you out."

Ochako frowned "I love you Dekukun. I want our baby to be like you."
Deku cocked his head to the side "Why on earth would you want that?"

"Because I love you.. I love your freckles and your hair and your smile, and.. I love what a geek you are and I love the way you take care of me and how protective you get. I love how loyal you are and how hard working you are."
Deku frowned "Uraraka. I just dissolved someone in a vat of acid. I don't think you want our baby to be like me."
"I.. Don't know." Ochako murmured "I just know I really love you."

"I love you too." Deku sighed, wiping his eyes and slipping his arms around Ochako gently, he would change for his kids. He would get better. He needed to. He looked at Uraraka sadly

"Marry me?"
Ochako frowned "Dekukun I don't think that would be a good idea right now. You just tried to dump me."

"B-but I didn't and I really love you. Please?"

"Can we do this later Dekukun?"

"O-okay." He said with a soft smile, she would say yes to a proposal, just not now. She would be his. She would have his last name. He pushed her against the wall, kissing her deeply with a soft moan. Ochako kissed him back with a soft moan, wrapping a leg around him.

Deku smiled at her, he felt her bump against him and it made him smile, those were his kids, she was, really, already his.

"Do you think we have time to go a round before you go to see your friends?"

Ochako nodded her head, "Yes. Please." She murmured Deku smiled at her, kissing her again with a huff. "Here or in the bed?"
"Bed. My back cannot handle doing it against the wall in this state."

Deku laughed "I'm sorry." He pressed his hand to her bump gently

"For what?"
"The back pain and morning sickness. This may be the most life altering thing I've ever done to anyone."
Ochako smiled at him softly "It's okay. I'm excited to meet them. It's a nice change."

Deku nodded with a smile, and he liked the way it felt. Maybe he could change more people's life for the better. The only person he really liked was his Ocha, but maybe that could change. He kissed her deeply

"I'm glad you're excited. I'm excited to take care of all three of you." Deku kissed her forehead "I'll take care of you right now." he cringed as he said it, it sounded better in his head.

She smiled at him softly, blushing at her toes as she went with him to the bedroom, she thought he was very suave. They were going to be late to see her friends, but she was pretty scared to hear what they would have to say anyways.