No Tomorrow

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*That Night*

"The soil here is rich, we can even grow tomatoes, cucumbers, and soybeans.."

The flames crackled low to the ground and Hershel dropped the bit of dirt from his hand while a bowl of meat was passed around, I had already eaten my portion of food for the day before everyone settled down for the night and Jay waved it away when Carl tried to pass him the bowl; Jay's head was resting across my knees but he kept looking at the stars above us with a sly smile. Rick was watching the fencing he hooked together earlier and Daryl was on top of an overturned bus back where we entered the place, Carol went to go switch watches with him a few minutes ago and I suppose that I'd have to deal with him seeing the two of us like this when he walked over.

"No thanks kid, I'm all good."

I chewed on my lower lip while I tried to think of what would happen, we still had the bag full of toys I'd snagged before the winter fully sat in a few months prior but we never got to use any of them since we were always on the run....we never got the time to ourselves, but here?...

"Bethy, won't you sing a song for us?"

"You're doing that thing again."

Jay poked at my face with a finger and I batted it away with the back of my right hand before Beth started singing some song softly across the fire.

"Talking to me again are we?"

We kept the tones of our voices soft so no one else could hear us but he just smiled and tried to touch my face again.

"Come on, you know that I'd never hurt you Belle, you just don't want to be in my head right now is all.''

"That bad, huh?"

I swiped a few hairs from his eyes with the tip of my thumbs and  he leaned his face into my hand and closed his eyes.

"Yeah...yeah it is..but if you're happy then that's all that matters."

I started running my other hand through his hair but he shuddered and wiped a wrist across his eyes before he blinked and inhaled deeply, a few tears that he'd missed were glinting wetly on his cheeks and it pained me to see him this way.

"Mm.."

"Tell me something...does he make you happy?"

"Yes..."

"Then I'm doing the right thing."

By the time Beth stopped her singing Carl had dozed off next to his mother and I heard Daryl crunching across the gravel over to us, Jay had rolled himself into a sitting position before he got too close and pretended to be busy looking at a few blades of grass by the flickering flames of the fire.

"I claimed the eastern watch tower if you want to sleep up there with me tonight, it's gonna be one hell of a busy day tomorrow."

I looked up just as Daryl lightly tapped the straps of my backpack and the heat rushed to my ears at the thought of finally having that fated alone time, I scrambled up to my feet and wiped at the grass stains along my ass.

"Might as well- see you in the morning Jay."

I followed Daryl to the furthest tower away from  the fire and he helped me up the rungs once he shouldered the door open, I was maybe halfway up the stairs when I heard it shut behind him so I went on up until my head bumped into a hatch door; I used my forearm to open the thing before I leaped up into the small room. Glass was on  all sides and there was even a bed shoved against a part of the far wall that had no glass, and it even had a few pillows and blankets folded on it.

"Huh...I didn't know prison guard towers had beds in them..."

Daryl heaved himself up into the room with a grunt and shut the hatch behind him with a thud and I shouldered my backpack to the floor by the bed and groaned when my shoulders popped in response; Daryl rolled his neck side to side while he walked around to the front of me and sat down on the edge of the bed.

"My brother's been to his fair share of pens before, some of these have beds for night shift people but it was a 50/50 gamble..do you want to sleep, or?''

"Not yet, it's been too long..."

I lowered myself down across his lap and suddenly we couldn't get our hands on eachother fast enough, he was tearing at my clothes like a wild animal and I had to remind myself to be careful with him as I tore his shirt to shreds with my fingers but it wasn't too high of a concern right now; soon enough we were both naked on top of one another and panting heavily.

"That didn't take long-"

He touched my left breast and used the palm of his left hand to heft it up to his chin, toying with the other one until the pressure of their weight was off my back entirely.

"I could get used to playing with these things-...they're so soft."

He pushed them together and buried his face between them and kissed at the sensitive skin until I was all but purring and the muscles between my legs were clentching and aching, it wasn't until he bit down on my soft nipples that the aches became painful enough to make me whimper.

I don't think I can wait for any of the toys....

Another sharp bite and this time I went to cry out but he clamped a hand down over my mouth before he flipped me over onto my back on the bed, the old sheets smelled dusty with mis-useage but my body had other plans to worry about; the bed could be dealt with later.