Liybimaya (Bucky Barnes)

Fear

Rose's pov

Dream

Walking downstairs I find James and the others in the living area, 'hey doll' James smiles Walking over to me pulling me into a hug, 'how'd you Sleep?' He asks 'okay' I shrug, 'I'm sorry doll'  James smiles caringly, 'it's not your fault' I reply laying my head on his chest.

'Can I get you a drink?' I ask 'yes please doll, coffee black please'  James answers, as I walk into the kitchen I hear laughter and chatter from the living space. 'How'd you put up with her' Sam laughs 'I just do, she doesn't know this but I hate her really' I hear James answer. My heart drops, 'does he really hate me?'  I question myself  'it was so annoying having her in the cell with me, doing the missions. I always had to keep her safe.'  James says 'she's so useless, the failed missions were all her fault' he continues.

'What about you Clint?'  Steve asks 'it's so annoying. She clingy, always calling me papa. I wished she was never rescued. She ruined Laura and I's life. Its her fault we had to move' papa says 'I wish she was never born' he adds. 'She was always the favourite in the red room, getting special treatment. She didn't have the graduation ceremony which was totally unfair as everyone else did' Nat comments. 'Steve?' She asks 'I hate how she clings to me, it's annoying.' Steve says 'I wish she was dead?' 

Rose's pov

'Doll', 'Come on doll wake up please' I hear a voice talking, my eyes slowly open to see James kneeling on the bed 'hey doll' he says softly smiling at me. I look at him confused 'doll, what's wrong' he asks I look down 'would you like to talk?' He asks I shake my head rolling over to face away from him. I hear him sigh 'okay doll, talk when your ready' he says 'I love you doll' James says kissing my back, closing my eyes I fall asleep.

Waking up I find the room empty, getting changed I pull on one of James long sleeved tops. Waking downstairs last night is being repeated in  my head, feeling hungry I walk into the kitchen to make some food. I can hear laughter and chatter from the living room. The fear is growing, feeling unwanted too.

The plate in my hands falls to the ground smashing, the fear causes me to run, the fear of being punished. I run as fast as I can out of the compound and as far away as possible.  I run and run feeling confused and scared. Running through an alley I trip and fall, glass cutting my skin, getting up I carry on running, energy running out I collapse to the floor with everything going black.

Buckys pov

I wake up suddenly, looking round I see its still dark, switching on my bedside lamp I see Rose thrashing about. 'Doll', 'Come on doll wake up please' I plead with moments in between to see if she responds. I kneel on the bed, her eyes slowly open 'hey doll' I say softly, she looks at me confused 'doll, what's wrong' i ask concerned,  rose looks down 'would you like to talk?' I ask she shakes her head rolling over to facing away from me. I sigh 'okay doll, talk when your ready'  I tell her 'I love you doll' I add kissing her back. I lay back down, switching off the light I fall back to sleep.

When I wake up next the sun is shining through the curtains in our room, rolling over I see Rose still asleep. Slipping out of bed I begin to quietly get myself ready, once dressed I head down to the kitchen where I find Steve and Clint 'morning' I smile as I make myself a coffee. 'Morning Bucky, no Rose this morning?' Clint asks 'she's still in bed, didn't have a good night, don't know why she wouldn't tell me' I confess looking down at my mug 'give it sometime, she will say when she's ready' Steve tells me placing a hand on my shoulder. 'I'm just worried though' I confess.

A short while later we are all in the livingroom chatting and laughing about Steve's run with Sam 'oh what I'd give to see that' I laughed 'come with us next time bucky' Sam says 'depends' I smile 'on what?' He asks 'Rose' I smile. 'You are smitten with her' Steve smiles, 'I guess I am' I smile 'from the first day I met her, I knew there was something special about her. I also had this urge to protect her and keep her safe' I confess.