gxg- Never Gonna Happen. (Regina George x reader) - Renee Rapp

Still in my mind

I sat at my usual spot in the cafeteria, absentmindedly stirring my food as I watched the students milling about. Ever since the almost-kiss with Regina, things had felt different between us. There was an unspoken tension that lingered, a palpable distance that neither of us seemed able to bridge. plus the fact I haven't seen her in almost a week.

Lost in my thoughts, I didn't notice the approach of a familiar figure until they were standing right in front of me. It was Alex, a fellow student from my biology class, with a shy smile on her face.

"Hey, Y/n," she greeted, sliding into the seat across from me. "Mind if I join you?"

I blinked in surprise, caught off guard by her sudden appearance. "Uh, sure, go ahead," I replied, gesturing for her to sit.

"So, I was thinking," Alex began, twirling a strand of hair nervously between her fingers. "Would you maybe want to go grab coffee sometime? You know, just as friends?"

My heart sank as I considered Alex's offer. While I appreciated her friendship, I couldn't deny the pull I still felt towards Regina. But Regina was at home recovering, and I couldn't shake the feeling of uncertainty that plagued me.

"I... I'd love to," I said, forcing a smile. "Coffee sounds great."

As we made plans to meet up later that week, I couldn't shake the feeling of guilt that gnawed at my insides. Was I really ready to move on from Regina so soon? And what would Regina think if she found out about this coffee date?

The rest of the day passed in a blur of uncertainty and anxiety. When I finally made my way to my last class, I couldn't help but steal glances at Regina's empty seat, which sat untouched a few rows ahead of me. Regina was at home, recovering from the accident, and I couldn't help but wonder how she was doing.

"Hey, Y/n," came a voice from behind me. It was Alex again, wearing a nervous smile as she fidgeted with the strap of her backpack. "Just wanted to confirm our plans for coffee tomorrow."

My heart sank as I glanced back at Regina's empty seat. I couldn't shake the feeling that I was making a mistake, but I didn't know how to back out now without hurting Alex's feelings.

"Right, coffee," I said, forcing a smile. "I'll see you tomorrow."

As Alex walked away, I couldn't help but feel a pang of regret. What had I gotten myself into? And how would I ever untangle myself from this mess? 

The coffee shop was bustling with activity as Alex and I settled into a cosy corner booth. The aroma of freshly brewed coffee filled the air, mingling with the soft murmur of conversation around us. Despite the warm atmosphere, I couldn't shake the knot of anxiety that tightened in my chest.

"So, how's your day been?" Alex asked, her voice breaking through my thoughts. She smiled warmly, her eyes bright with anticipation.

"Uh, it's been okay," I replied, forcing a smile. "Just the usual school stuff, you know."

As we chatted about our classes and upcoming assignments, I couldn't shake the feeling of unease that lingered in the back of my mind. My thoughts kept drifting back to Regina, wondering how she was doing and if she was thinking about me too.

Suddenly, the sound of the cafe door opening caught my attention, and I looked up to see a familiar figure stepping inside. It was Regina's mom, her expression surprised as her eyes landed on us sitting in the corner booth.

"Y/n?" she exclaimed, making her way over to our table. "What a surprise to see you here."

My heart sank as I met Mrs. George's gaze, feeling a flush of guilt wash over me. I hadn't expected to run into anyone we knew, especially not Regina's mom.

"Hi, Mrs. George," I said, trying to sound casual despite the knot of nerves in my stomach. "Um, this is Alex. We're just grabbing coffee. Fuck she doesn't need to know that 

Mrs. George's eyes flickered between us, her expression unreadable. "Nice to meet you, Alex," she said politely, offering a small smile. "I hope you're treating Y/n well."

Alex nodded, her smile faltering slightly as she glanced at me. "Of course, Mrs. George. Y/n and I are just catching up."

I shifted uncomfortably in my seat, acutely aware of the tension hanging in the air. I wanted nothing more than for Mrs. George to leave so I could salvage what was left of our coffee date, but she seemed in no hurry to go.

"Well, it was nice running into you both," Mrs. George said finally, breaking the awkward silence. "I should get going. Take care, Y/n."

With a polite nod, she turned and made her way out of the café, leaving Alex and me alone once more. But the damage had already been done, the atmosphere now tinged with an uncomfortable awkwardness that neither of us could shake.

As we sat in silence, sipping our coffee and avoiding each other's gaze, I couldn't help but feel a pang of regret. What had I been thinking, agreeing to this coffee date with Alex? And what would Regina say if she found out?

no I need to stop thinking like this Regina doesn't like me. she made that evidently clear that evening. 

The coffee date between Alex and me actually went surprisingly well. Despite the initial awkwardness caused by Mrs. George's unexpected appearance, Alex had a way of putting me at ease with her easy-going demeaner and genuine interest in our conversation.

As we delved deeper into topics like our shared interests, hobbies, and aspirations, I found myself genuinely enjoying our time together. Alex had a quick wit and a contagious enthusiasm that made it easy to forget about the outside world and simply focus on the present moment.

"So, what made you decide to ask me out for coffee?" I ventured, breaking the comfortable silence that had settled between us.

Alex grinned, her eyes sparkling with amusement. "Well, aside from the fact that I think you're pretty awesome, I've been wanting to get to know you better, especially  since the day you stood up to Regina George," Alex admitted, her voice laced with admiration. "I mean, not everyone has the courage to do that, you know?"

I felt a warmth spread through me at her words, grateful for her genuine interest and the way she made me feel seen. "It was no big deal," I replied modestly, though secretly thrilled that she had noticed. "But I'm glad you asked. I've been looking forward to this."

As our conversation continued to flow effortlessly, I couldn't shake the feeling that there was something special about Alex. Maybe it was the way she listened intently to every word I said, or the way her laughter filled the air with joy. Whatever it was, I found myself eager to spend more time in her company, curious to see where this newfound connection might lead us.

Despite the enjoyable conversation with Alex, I couldn't shake the persistent thoughts of Regina that crowded my mind. It was like she was a constant presence, lingering at the edges of my thoughts, even as I tried to focus on the present moment with Alex.

As Alex spoke animatedly about her favourite travel destinations, I found myself nodding along absentmindedly, my thoughts drifting back to Regina's familiar smile and the way her eyes lit up whenever we were together. It was a bittersweet reminder of the complicated feelings I harboured for her, feelings that I had been trying so hard to suppress in the wake of recent events.

"Y/n? Are you okay?" Alex's voice broke through my reverie, her concerned gaze searching mine.

I blinked, pulling myself back to the present with a sheepish smile. "Sorry, I guess I got lost in thought for a moment there," I admitted, feeling a pang of guilt for not giving Alex my full attention.

"It's okay," Alex reassured me with a gentle smile. "I understand if you have a lot on your mind. I'm just happy to be here with you."

Her understanding demeanour only made me feel more conflicted. Here was someone who genuinely cared about me, who was making an effort to get to know me better, and yet my mind kept drifting back to Regina, the one person who seemed to occupy every corner of my heart.