Played (Montellano series #1)

Chapter 28

Chapter 28

I stared at the clear blue sky. Nasa veranda ako ngayon at nakaupo habang nag-iisip. It's been two days and this is the first time I went out of the room. I spent the whole two days crying for my pain.

The view was peaceful but I feel guilty that I can't appreciate its beauty. The trees are in their perfect green color and the sky is in its perfect clear blue but they can't help me ease the pain.

A tear drop from my eye that I immediately wiped off. I'm tired of crying. Dalawang araw na akong umiiyak pero parang hindi nauubos ang luha ko. It's frustrating.

I want to go back to Manila. It was noisy and chaotic there but at least I won't be reminded of anything about him when I'm there. While here, everything reminds me of him. This place reminds me of him, of what he did, of the pain that he gave me.

It hurts so much. And I hate that I hated the place I loved before because of him.

How I wish I never met him. Sana pala naniwala na lang ako kay Kim at hindi siya pinansin. Now that he got what he wanted, he left me with my shattered heart. I should've not trusted him. I was such a fool.

He betrayed me. He cheated on me. He said he won't hurt me. He promised he won't leave me like his mother did. Ang sabi niya hindi siya magiging katulad ng ina niya pero anong ginawa niya? He cheated.

That fucking asshole, kaya pala hindi ako sinasagot at hindi nagpaparamdam. May iba na palang inaatupag. Did he had fun fooling me? I can't believe I became one of his collections. Ang galing niya pala talagang makipaglaro.

He never changed. He is still a playboy. Tama nga ang mga pinsan ko, lalo na si Kim. Dapat naniwala ako sa kanila noon.

I flinched when my phone suddenly rang. I saw Jake's name. Tinanggap ko ang tawag niya.

"Hey, cous..."

"Hi Jake. How are you?" I tried to sound fine.

"Yeah, I'm fine here. Uh," he sighed and trailed off. "How are you feeling? I'm sorry for calling, I just want to check on you."

Tipid akong ngumiti at yumuko. Pinaglaruan ko ang dulo ng damit ko.

"I guess I'm trying to be fine. You know I should've listened to you. That friend of yours is an asshole."

"He can't be friends with me anymore because of what he did to you. I'm trying to contact him but he's not responding." He sighed heavily. "Kahit sina Baste, ganoon din."

"It's okay. Don't try to reach him anymore. I just want to go back there."

"I thought you'll go home this week?"

"Jans doesn't want to go. He's waiting for someone. It's okay, I can still wait for next week."

"I heard they're still convincing him."

Tumango ako. Ilang minuto pa kaming nag-usap bago siya nagpaalam. Magkikita sila ni Elena dahil may date daw sila ngayon.

I then realized how Jake must have felt when he left this place. I guess I can relate to him. I guess this place reminded him of the pain, like what I'm experiencing right now. I now understand why he left this place and doesn't want to come back.

It was a dreadful day. Gustong-gusto ko na talagang bumalik sa Manila at umalis dito. But then I should consider Jansen who doesn't want to go home yet.

I stayed at the veranda the whole day. Paminsan-minsan akong sinasamahan ng mga pinsan ko roon. Kinukumbinsi pa rin daw nila si Jansen na umuwi, though I said I can wait until next week, day before the enrollment.