Monotone

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My tone...
"Always so professional"
He says playfully
I thought he was telling a joke

My words
"Always so formal"
He's more blunt than usual
I must be overthinking

My sentences
"With that monotone voice again"
His sharp eyes roll
I must have said something wrong

My mind
"The way you talk is different"
What does he mean?
Confirming something I've always known about me

My thoughts
"I hate when you talk like that"
Talk how?
What did I do now?

My heart
"Can you just show affection for once!"
He shouts
Causing anxiety to sprout

What was wrong?
If not with my words
But with my tone
I have always been somewhat monotone


I can be expressive, but my tone and words can sound too formal and monotone. I don't mean to come across as distant, but my choice of words is simply how my brain decided to work. Someone I know would bring up how formal I sounded and would joke about it pretty often. Only to have my way of talking being an increasing problem for him, shouting at me for my tone and voice lacking affection.

It was the first time I felt conscious about the way I talk.

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