mafias obsession(1st book in mafia obsession series)

chapter 38: Insanity

I had chosen the path of insanity. It felt like the only right one to pick. I had never felt sane, I had always felt different. I had always been treated different. So why not show them that were right, but that they didn't know how far it was?

I had always felt insane. I had voices in my head. I saw things no one else did. I went through things my friends thought were only in fantasy books.

I was always treated as different and bullied because of it. I was seen as the weird girl. Or the girl who didn't know how to communicate properly and would be seen as dangerous.

I wasn't dangerous back then. At least not as much as I am now that's for sure. But it made me feel like I was crazy. Like I was the odd person out.

The only thing that truly gave me company was the shadows I saw and the voices I heard that weren't mine. It was the only thing that kept me alive many times.

My beliefs of the world were different to others and not many people liked that. I would always be told I was crazy or weird or different.

For years I didn't want to be different, I didn't want to be the odd child out. But eventually I grew into it. I grew into my insanity and now I was ready to embrace it more.

Lye had opened the door of the room behind us that had dark stairs leading down to somewhere. As we got down there my eyes widened at the sight.

The room I was treated like a toy in looked like a torture room, this was a torture room.

There was chains hanging from the ceilings, needles everywhere, knives kept on shelves and a long red hanging scroll with what seemed to be rules on it.

The room was dark and had only candles within it.

Lye goes to a corner and gives me a black silk robe to put on "change into this" he tells me, I turn around and remove my clothing putting on the robe and turning back to him.

I saw everyone standing at the back of the room and Lye took me to the centre, standing in front of me. "Kneel" he commanded and I did so.

I felt him lift up my head slightly and make me look up at him. He had a black wine glass with something inside of it and dipped one of his fingers inside the glass before creating three lines on my forehead with whatever was in the glass.

I'm then given the glass and a knife and I'm told to read out some promises whilst slitting my hand and putting the blood into the glass. The promises are all along the lines of secrecy and respect which made perfect sense and finally once I'm done with the promises I'm told to drink from the glass.

I take a moment before eventually deciding to do so, realising there's no way out now.

My hands are then chained down and so are my ankles and I realise that the marking process is to begin. What did the marking process entail? What was gonna happen?

I feel the pressure of two things press against my temples and suddenly a strong vibration goes through my entire body. I'm surprised that I didn't pass out right there from the amount of shocks it all gave me but I managed to keep looking forward as it all happened.

During that process I also feel knives digging into my arms, thighs and legs, the knives making things into me.

I smile as i feel the pain from the knives digging deeper and deeper into my thigh, the chains digging into my wrists and ankles and the electroshock's sending waves of electricity through my throat, head and chest.

The pain is immense but knowing it's from them makes the pleasure over power it, I would do anything for them, no matter what it would be and i would have a smile on my face as i do it.

Suddenly it all stops and I look down at myself to see a pattern on my left outer thigh and a name I don't recognise on the inner part. The pattern looks like the satanic star but it's also inside of a red diamond. On my right thigh inner thigh is Lye's and Sadie's initials claiming me as their own.

"Rise" Lye told me and I did so, my legs were hurting but I couldn't care less about it. Was the process over?

"Welcome to the dark side" Liver's words and small laugh made me realise that my assumption was correct.

Lye and Sadie both gave me a soft kiss and thoughts of the decision I just made crossed my mind.

I had finally choosen my path, but was it the right one to choose?