mafias obsession(1st book in mafia obsession series)

chapter 22: Not good enough

!Trigger warning!: the end of this chapter contains sexual scenes. 

I saw the message. The message that sent chills down my spine. That made me want to run away. I saw it. And the thing is I could do nothing about it.

The others had arrived home at 11 and i acted like nothing had happened, hoping that they wouldn't suspect anything. I had questioned whether i should ask Sadie if she also knew about the room but decided against it. I didn't want to cause any arguments if she didn't and what would i have said if she did.

I woke up around 9am and saw that Lye was no longer laying beside me but saw his phone on the desk. Remembering that he had work today but probably forgot his phone i decided i would make him breakfast and drop it off for him.

I went downstairs and started cooking, i prepared some tamagoyaki and rice, with some strawberries and grapes in a small pot. Hoping that he would like it, seeing as i knew he enjoyed Japanese food and wanted to treat him.

I grabbed his phone, placing it in my backpack along with the food and walked to where his job was seeing as it was only a couple minutes walk away.

As i arrived i decided to wait at one of the tables, placing the food in front of me and the phone too.

At first everything was going as planned, watching him work behind the bar and waiting for him to finish.

That was until he got a message, going to turn the phone off i saw a girl's name pop up on the screen and a message saying 'miss you' with a heart. Thinking nothing of it i switched off the phone, until another message popped up. 'baby, i want you back'. I rolled my eyes, what is this a chick flick movie?

But then the realisation set in. There was better girls out there for him. Ones that could treat him better than i ever could. So why should I stay when she was probably a lot prettier and was better for him? plus do i really wanna go through something like this again?

I tried to ignore my thoughts but my mind just wouldn't turn off. If i keep questioning this then clearly i'm not as calm as i'm meant to be. just another point why he deserves better..

My thoughts were right he did deserve better, placing his phone on top of the food dish i simply walked out.

I started off going for a walk, seeing if it would calm my mind at all and wondering if i was simply being irrational. But my mind wouldn't stop racing at 100 miles per hour that I decided maybe Lye would truly be better off without me.

Going back to the house, my mind filled of chaos I went to our room and I felt lucky that Sadie wasn't there. I started packing instantly and heard someone walk in the room.

"Starlight?" For once in my life I ignored her pretty voice, feeling extremely guilty about it but knowing it was what's for the best.

I felt her hand touch my arm slightly, and turned to her.

"Mhm?" my eyes were filled with tears and I could see her was becoming so too.

"Starlight please.. what happened..?" She asks softly.

"You and Lye are better off without me" I barely whispered, my voice shaky.

"What makes you think that?" She asked, her voice so soothing that I almost stopped packing.

"You both just are.." I didn't want to confess what the full truth was.

Knowing I was very closed off she walks out the room and I could hear some hushed whispers but I simply ignored them.

Tears were running down my face and I'm sure I looked pathetic at this moment of time.

I was only half way through packing when I felt a pair of arms wrap around my waist and pull me in to a chest.

"Lye..no." I whispered, I felt like screaming, I felt so guilty. This is why I'm not enough for them.

"Why..?" He asked softly, wiping a tear from my cheek softly.

"I'm not good enough. She is." I stated, my voice sounding colder without me wanting it to.

"Who darling?" He asked softly, why was he being so soft with me? He shouldn't be. He should hate me.

"Her. The girl that sent you a message." I looked to a corner of the room, unable to face him.

"Who- wait" he opened his phone and saw the missed messages "fuck. Baby no. No. No." He pulled me to him "you and Sadie are all I currently want. And I don't ever want her back. Ever." I didn't believe his words, I wanted to but I just couldn't.

"why don't you go back with her? I bet she's good enough. She's definitely more good enough for you than I am. You deserve better Lye. Someone who is right for you. She's not missing anything, she seems perfect for you." I blurted out, I just physically couldn't do it anymore, he deserved so much better.

"she's not you" he said it so simply.

"what?" What was he saying? What did he mean?

"She. Isn't. You. She doesn't make me as happy as you make me. She doesn't make me smile as much as you make me. She doesn't make me miss her every single second we're apart. She doesn't make me want to better myself. She doesn't make me feel like I can regress around her and be safe with it. She doesn't make me love her to the point it hurts. And she doesn't make me crave her, want to worship her and want her as mine forever." He confessed. Did he really mean that? "You do. So like I said. She's not you." He continued.

"I-" I was too stunned to speak. I didn't understand, or maybe I did, maybe I understood it all so well it just felt too perfect to be true.

"so don't you dare leave. I need you Allia. I need you so god damn hard." He pulled me closer and whispered against my lips.

I instantly wrapped my arms around his neck "I'm sorry" I mumbled.

"You don't have to apologise" he told me as he pulled me closer by my waist "but let me show you how much you truly are enough for me~" he murmered and kissed me deeply.

I took a few seconds before I kissed him back but when I did I kissed him like there was no tommorow.

He pushed me on the bed and pinned my wrists above my head, my legs instantly wrapping around him.

We continued to kiss eachother not taking a single moment to breathe, my fingers entangling in his hair.

He took off my top and unbuttoned my jeans, leaving sweet kisses up and down my stomach.

He unhooked my bra and kissed my breasts lightly, like they were one of the most precious things on earth.

"Your enough sweetheart" he mumbled and ran his tounge along my nipples, making me moan softly.

"Your enough for me" he continued leaving the sweet kisses on my skin. "your enough for Sadie" he kissed up my thighs. "Your enough. Your special. And I'll treasure you for the rest of my life" he pulled my panties to my ankles and kissed my pussy ever so lightly that I almost couldn't feel it at all.

Before he dove right in, licking and sucking and scraping his teeth against it, making my thighs squeeze together around his head.

"Lye~!! Oh fuck~!! Fuck yes that's it~!!" I moaned so loudly I'm sure the others could hear us but I didn't care, he was giving me one of the highest amounts of pleasure I had ever felt.

"You like that hm~ me eating your pussy out like its the last god damn meal on this planet~" I didn't have time to answer as he pulled on my clit with his teeth. One of my hands was entangled in his hair whilst my other was holding tightly onto the sheets.

He thrust two fingers inside me, making me buck my hips in response to him. "Fuck please~" I moaned as my eyes rolled back, showing just how slutty I truly was for him.

"God you taste so good~ cum for me sweetheart~ cum all over daddy's face~" I did as commanded and came for him, it being one of the best orgasms I had ever had.

He licked up every drop like he couldn't get enough and layed beside me pulling me into his arms. "That prove enough for you mi amore?" He asked softly and I nodded, feeling Sadie slip in the bed beside me and as I felt both of their arms around me like a comfortable safety net I fell into a deep slumber, dreaming of our future.