Till I Awaken

Part 6: Undead Bev

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I stood there infront of the mirror for what seemed like hours, just staring at my new undead body. I looked a lot more fit, my body was well defined. My face fully matured in teh change, making me look a lot older. And I was so insanely intriguing that even I wanted to come near me, that's weird. I didn't even acknowledge Chance and Ronin behind me watching my expression. I felt like my whole world was falling apart, followed by anger, anxiety, shock, ache, to all of them at once. On top of that I felt more in the room. Like I could almost taste how I felt, and how Ronin and Chance felt. Is this something about vampires I haven't been told? That they can taste emotions in the air? I never knew that was possible. I thought they just had lightning speed, super strength, and...yeah. Not this. Or is this a special thing? Does not every vampire have this? That would be so cool! To have my own individual power! Wouldn't that make me special? I would think yes.

Now let's see what I can do with it. I know how I'm feeling, Ronin seems to feel worried, he must be making sure that I don't go on a feeding frenzy, which frankly the bruning in my throat isn't that bad, probably because I'm not around an actual human yet. I can only smell them from a distance. Chance, he has a feeling I've never seen before. It felt like regret, but different like grief, or resentment. I just can't pin point it, and he is all over the place. It's been changing by the second, but since I'm now a vampire, it feels like minutes because I'm so quick. I focused back on me, and let it hit me harder of what just happened to me.

"Why me?" I whispered to myself. I felt my eyes water. Yes vampires cry, only...the tear streaked down my cheek in a dark red color. Tears are red liek their eyes. It's their left over human blood letting itself out.

"I'm sorry, I can't do this." Chance whispered. That shocked me more. What does he mean by that?! Ronin turned to him.

"Go make sure the accident was cleaned up. We don't need people looking for her." Ronin instructed Chance. He didn't hesitate. He didn't even look at me. And his emotions tasted like grief and hate mixed. Did he feel that way towards me?

"Beverly? You alright?" Ronin asked me, breaking me out of my thoughts.

"No. I'm a vampire. I never wanted to be one. I wanted to stay human! I want to be me! Now, I'm a monster! How am I supposed to go on doing what I usually do? I can't stay here! I would kill my mom!" I got louder the more I said. Ronin put his hand on my cheek.

"It's okay, Beverly. You can come live with me and Chance in the sanctum." he reasoned.

"The sanctum! No! That's in the local cemetery! I'm not living underground in a graveyard, only coming out at night!" I complained.

"It's the perfect place for us to help you learn to control your thirst. And fledglings can't be out in the sun for about 48 hours to allow their eyes to adjust back to normal color. So you'll have to, to protect your mother." he reasoned. I stood there with my arms folded, in a pout.

"I wish this never happened." I responded. He pulled me into a hug.

"I know. I'm sorry. I really wish we could stop it." I hugged him back, because he was the closest thing I had to a father right now. And I needed a dad at the moment. I cried more bloody tears, staining his shirt. Luckily it was black. I balled my eyes out, my throat burned on top of that. It lasted for abotu 15 minutes before the tears finally receded. I stayed in his arms though. I missed my dad, and Ronin actually felt like him. Warm, comforting, caring, and safe.

"When do I have to leave?" I asked. Referring to the sanctum.

"Tonight. Before your mom gets back. Which should be soon. Back the essentials, we can buy you more stuff like furniture, and clothes later, best thing to do is grab what you can and leave. I'll be waiting in the car. You have 15 minutes." we stopped hugging and he grabbed his keys.

"What about Chance?" I asked.

"I'll call him while you're packing. He'll meet us there. Hurry." he left out the front door and I ran at full super speed to pack. I pulled out a small duffel bag from my closet and threw in a couple of my favorite clothes, underwear, and toiletries. Including toothbrush, deoderant, make up, hair product, razor, lady products, an extra pair of shoes, and I snatched my pillow, which smelled like my dad before he left us. It made me feel safe, I couldn't leave it. I was about to rush out to the car when the front door opened.

"Yes, make sure the presentation is ready on my desk in the morning, we cannot afford to mess up this pitch. Bye now." my mom was on the phone when she entered. Within seconds I smelt something so tempting that my throat felt like I swallowed gasoline and lit a match and put it down my throat. I felt my muscles tense, and my mind jerk into hungry mode. I didn't realize what was happening, but I couldn't stop myself. I dropped my bag softy, not making a sound. I didn't want my prey to hear me. My prey?! Where did that come from? I crouched down in a feline way and very silently moved towards the door, where I would run into my prey when she came up the stairs and I would feed. My sharp fangs became sharper, if I even touched my lips with them they would make me bleed. Blood, the thought got me moving faster. My eyes felt more hot, more red. I heard my mom coming towards the stairs very humanly slow.

"Beverly." a low whisper said. I wheeled around to see Ronin coming towards. "You don't want to do this, she's your mom. Grab your things and go out the window, now!" he whispered at a level only I would hear. I hissed, which my regular mind thought was really weird. My mom started coming up the stairs and I turned my attention back to her. Before I knew it Ronin rushed up and shut the door quickly in front of me, and standing in my way.

"Bev? Is that you honey?" my mom reacted.

"Tell her you're fine." Ronin whispered his instruction. I stared at him in anger, but I had slightly more conrol of myself with the slight separation between my mom and I.

"Yeah mom, it's me. I'm going on a sleep over with a couple of girls from work. As a reward for all our hard work on the concert. I'll call you when I get there." I replied. My control was slowly coming back to me as Ronin's emotional smell grew stronger. He was frightened for my mom's life. And worried abotu me. But his love for my mom was so strong, it helped mask my moms scent.

"Okay, honey. Goodnight!" she reponded. I heard her door open and close as she went to sleep. Ronin kept eye contact with me.

"Window!" he whispered forcefully. I picked up my bag and went to my window, I looked down where the ground was, and my vampire senses told me it would be nothing, so I jumped and I felt like an angel, I glided down softly and landing without a sound. Ronin eventually followed, he probably was making sure I wouldn't jump back in and try to get to my mom. We were int he car in seconds and he was racing to the sanctum.

"Damn it, Bev! You were so close to killing her! Do you realize how hard it would've been to stop you, you're technically stronger than me, I risked both our lives stepping in front of you." he had a tone of angry, but his face and taste saaid otherwise.

"And still you did. I'm sorry, I'm not used to these temptations you people have. I was caught off guard. Inside I didn't want to kill her. I was begging myself to stop, but my monster side was too strong." I responded. Ronin nodded.

"That's why it's so dangerous for us to be around humans, especially as fresh as you. I'm sorry you ahve to endure this. I hate watching others suffer the same I've suffered. Chance doesn't have it easy either, he still suffers the temptation, but he has a stronger human side too, so he can stop it easier. Fight it. But you and I, being the full blooded vampires, this is a regular thing." he explained.

"Do you have to go through that every time you're with my mom?" I asked. He shook his head.

"It's less painful the older you are, I've heard of cases where the oldest of vampires in the ages of thousands, that they don't get a temptation ever. That they are practically human, except for the great power. Like Eilam, he's not nearly as tempted as us. Here we are." he pulled into the cemetery. I grabbed my bag from the trunk and walked with him to the secret entrance.

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