Till I Awaken

Part 19: You Regret Having Me

It's official! The new title of 'Fangs' is now 'Awaken My Soul'. Hope you love it!

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Dreaming, thats the worst thing for me to be doing at this point. I don't even know how I got to this point. All I remember about last night, was meeting Ian, we all arriving at the tree haven, Chance going hunting, Ian telling me info I might as well not know, we kissing softly, then it getting a lot more passionate, leading to a hot and steamy night. Now I was dreaming. About red, blood. Everywhere. It drips off of me, completely soaking the floor, the walls, just blood. I clutched to my throat as the immense burn took over. I wanted the blood. Oh the red liquid made me shiver. My eyes flew open, it was still dark, but barely. Dawn was on it's way. I tried to go over all that has happened, it was all just a dream. But my throat did burn from thirst. A slight moan came from behind me, an arm was around my waist. My bare waist. I was naked, and Ian's arms were around me. He was naked as well! Holy Hannah! We had sex last night! Chance still wasn't back from hunting? I jumped up, and started gathering up my clothes. That woke up Ian.

"What's wrong?" he asked, still trying to wake up completely.

"Chance could be back any minute. I don't want him to see us like this." I explained. He sat up quickly and started putting his clothes back on too.

"You're right, I didn't even think about that." he rushed quicker than me. We got dressed in silence. "I'm sorry. If I did something wrong." Ian muttered. He looked like he was actually afraid of me being mad at him. What's weird is, I don't regret having sex with him, I just didn't want to be caught by Chance, I mean we may not be together, but he thinks he still has a shot with me. Which at this point in time, I don't think that will happen. I remember the feelings I had while I was with Lufian last night. They weren't fire, or sparks, of explosions, it was peace. The thing I've wanted most throughout my entire experience with vampires. I have been overly stressed for years since vampires came into my life, and just now I have finally felt peace.

"You didn't do anything wrong. Don't ever think you did anything wrong." I said coming close to him. "Last night, was nothing like how I imagined it." he looked at me worried, like I was meaning it was worse. "It was more." I finished. He replaced his worried face with his heart melting smile.

"You've imagined having sex with me?" he teased. I playfully punched his shoulder.

"That's not what I meant, now shut up." I responded. He laughed.

"Well, I'm sorry miss, I just think it's funny when a girl imagines sleeping with me. I was gentle with you last night, I didn't want to go full out on someone who's only had it once." he teased.

"Oh, and how many times have you done it?" I asked, with a little sarcasm. You would think we were fighting, but it was all teasing and playing around.

"I'm a lot older than you." he answered. Meaning, a lot!

"No duh, son of the oldest vampire alive, I would think you were pretty old." I reacted smoothly.

"Almost a thousand years." he stated. I didn't expect that old. My eyes widened. He laughed. "Nine hundred and eighty seven last month." he explained.

"Ok, maybe I shouldn't have slept with such an old guy, man, you should be a pedophile." I teased. He laughed along with me as he wrapped his arms around my waist. We stared at each other in silence.

"Did you really hold out on me?" I asked. He smiled sweetly.

"I held back the heat, the passion. But I did not hold back any feelings I have for you. I was soft with you, soft, because my love for you isn't harsh, it's soft." he explained.