Till I Awaken

Part 22: The End

Hey fans, it's been a while, yes I know. I've been really busy. Well, here is the final chapter of Awaken My Soul!!!!!!! If you want a sequel vote and comment. I need to know whether or not it was good enough for a sequel to be possible, because I might publish it! So tell me what you think! Love you all!

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Curtis Judalet once said, "Love is as much of an object as an obsession, everybody wants it, everybody seeks it, but few ever achieve it, those who do will cherish it, be lost in it, and among all, never… never forget it." I think he was right. You never forget it. Two people when alone will always be two people. But when together they are one. I have felt that twice. And it's only then do we feel perfect.

I don't know how long I was crying, but I know it was for hours. Sitting on the floor, crying into Ian's lap. Malpirgi, Edric, and Keanan left the room after about two hours of tears, Edric and Malpirgi probably talked to Keanan. Which also didn't expect to live through this and become a new royal. After what seemed like all night, I finally calmed down. Ian carried me to 'our' room and lay-ed me on the bed, he left to give me space. I didn't sleep, I couldn't. I couldn't get Chance's expression out of my head. A few stray tears would fall occasionally, but very rarely, I was all out of tears. I just lied down and looked into space. Which also felt like a long time. I was thinking about the decision I made. Did I really make the right choice by being with Ian? I mean, Chance and I have history. But Ian makes me feel so peaceful, at least he did before the whole dead Chance thing happened. The door opened to my room and the bed shifted, as strong arms wrapped around my waist. Ian's lips lightly kissed my neck.

"You okay?" he asked. I nodded slightly. It was a lie, I was certainly not okay, I was confused and hurt. "I know you're lying." he muttered. I stayed still. He started lightly straightening out my messy hair.

"I'm sorry." he whispered. I didn't say anything. "It wasn't your fault, Beverly. This was gonna happen no matter what." he explained.

"Would it of happened if I stayed with Chance? If I never started loving you, if I wouldn't have run away at the sanctum? Would it have happened if I didn't forgive Chance in the first place when he came back? If I just moved on and lived my life, human. And Chance would have given up, and moved on with his life as well. I would have never met you, Malpirgi, Keanan, or even Kieyera again! I would have never realized she was dead in the first place! Ronin would be alive, Chance would be alive! Everyone would be okay, and I would live a normal human life, with a husband, children, grow old and never have to endure this again! But-" I screeched. I was cut off by more tears flowing down my cheeks. I sat up during my rant, making Ian sit up too. He took my head in his hands.

"Beverly! Bev stop!" he ordered. "This was never your fault! He loved you, and you loved him. It was never a crime to love him, it was never a crime to want to be with him." he reassured.

"What about you? Was it a crime to want to be with you?" I asked. He stared into my eyes. Them sparkling, but he tasted kind of hurt, like my words meant something different to him. He let go of my face and got off the bed, not looking at me.

"You tell me." he mumbled. He was shutting off, why do I make people do that! He started walking towards the door.

"Don't walk away from me!" I yelled. He stopped.

"What else can I do?" he asked.

"Stop acting like this was all a mistake." I begged, he flipped around.

"This isn't a mistake, I'm just worried that you think it is." he responded. I held back tears.

"Why would you think I would?" I asked.

"I don't know! You're so beaten up about Chance, and I know how you felt about him. I don't want you to regret choosing me, if you ever really did choose me." he answered.

"I don't regret choosing you. I chose you! I love you with parts of my heart I never thought I had in me. That in itself is something for you to remember." I explained. I didn't lie, I felt the words with all my heart. He just stood there staring at me.

"If you never met me in the first place, would you be saying that to Chance? Would you have even remembered how that last kiss he gave you make you felt?" he asked seriously. The question hit me in the gut. Would I? Now that i think about it, if Ian never appeared right after that kiss, I might have allowed the feelings it gave me sink in, I might have chosen to love Chance like I love Ian. I might have gave my entire life to Chance. It all changed when Ian came in. But what if he never intervened? I was thinking about it when Ian interrupted my thoughts.

"That answers that question." he mumbled hurt. He meant my hesitation. He turned away to walk out again.

"Wait!" he paused. "Please, don't. I can't take this now." I begged slash sobbed. He just stood there facing away from me.

"I don't want to hurt you Beverly." Ian said, he tasted like he was hurting by hearing me cry.

"Then don't." I whispered. He shook his head. I got off the bed and rushed up to him. He turned around when he heard me coming up to him. We gazed at each other for a long time. Just analyzing each others thoughts. His hand came up on my jaw line softly.

"How did you feel when he kissed you that day?" he asked softly. I shook my head.

"I don't remember. I don't even think I felt anything." I answered lightly. He just stared at me.

"How does this feel?" he asked. He very lightly pressed his lips to mine. So lightly it allowed tiny sparks, and a soothing numb feeling come over me. He let go, but I kept my eyes closed.

"Perfect." I whispered. I slowly opened my eyes, he was looking away. I was confused, what just happened.

"I think we both need time to think things over." he mumbled. Oh, no, he is not doing this to me now! I cannot do this right now! I will scream! I lifted my hand and slapped him clear across the face. He just bit his lip and walked out. It took seconds after he left for the tears to pour out like waterfalls again. I didn't bother to go to the bed, I just curled up in the corner and balled my eyes out, allowing the sobbing sounds to escape. Louder and louder. And the question hung in my head, haunting me. I swear I could hear Chance and Ian's voices screaming it at me.

Did I make the right choice?

Did I choose the right person?

Do I know what I want?

Do I regret?

--Chance's POV--

Wait a minute? What happened to me being dead? I killed myself. I said goodbye to the love of my life, my existence. I opened my eyes, in the sunlight. I blocked my face instantly. But I didn't feel a single burn, I was perfectly fine. I stood up, I was in the forest, or what looked like the jungle in India. This was thousands of miles away from where I died. Where I turned to dust? How do I still have a body and am alive? I turned around when I heard a rustling. And there stood Eilam, Zen, Carmen, and, Ronin?!

"Chance. You made it." Ronin addressed. I looked at him shocked, confused, and even more shocked.

"What's going on?" I asked.

"Revolution."

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Ooh! The end of the book, and I leave you with mystery! Yeah!!!!!!! Tell me what you think! And whether or nto I should write a sequel through commenting or voting! Love you all, and thank you for making this such a successful book!

PS I might write a prologue, depends on how much I want to.