Till I Awaken

Part 8: Twisted Fate

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--Chance's POV--

I stared at where she took off. Her last words stabbed my heart. I did do this to her again, I broke her heart, she probably hates me now. I don't know what is up with me, but looking at her as a vampire changes my perspective, she's not the sweet independent human I fell in love with. I guess now since she's a vampire, loving her would only strengthen my vampire side, instead of my human side, which I've been trying to bring out in the last few years. i hated the monster part of me, and now Beverly was a monster too. How can I hold onto that human side of me, if she's not human too? I tasted her emotions, they were in pure pain. I just hurt her like I did the first time. I can't believe I was such a jerk, but I couldn't help myself. She wanted to know what was bothering me, and I told her. I didn't like the fact that she was a vampire, and that I didn't love her anymore. At least I think I didn't. I mean, it's just weird to understand. A couple minutes later Ronin came down with a confused slash angry expression on his face, and in his taste of emotions.

"What did you do?!" he asked loudly.

"What?" I asked. He pointed to the door.

"Beverly just rushed off, I didn't have time to catch her! What did you say to her that made her run?!" he answered.

"Nothing!" I snapped.

"I know you're lying! The sun is about to come up, Chance! I need to know what you said so I can get an idea where she's going." he responded.

"I don't know, she was wonderign what was up with me, and I just answered honestly. I can't love her as a vampire." I answered.

"You what!" he snapped. "And why would you say that?!" he asked.

"Because it's true! I fell in love with her to help me bring my humanity back a little bit, now that she's a vampire, I can't get humanity out of it, all I get is more power into my vampire side." I answered.

"She's scared right now Chance. Couldn't you feel it? I know you have a special gift of being able to taste others emotions in the air. Couldn't you tell that she was scared to be a vampire, she hates it already. And you adding THAT onto her really lit the fuse! You never know, she could be on a suicide mission right now! To go burn in the sun because she feels worthless!" he responded. I sat on the couch silently.

"You think she would do that? Kill herself in the sun?" I asked, the guilt began to eat me alive.

"I'm not sure. Why would you think that you couldn't love her as a vampire?" he asked. I shook my head.

"At first when I found out what i was, I let the vamprie half rage, then after workign for you, I wanted to be human again, so I intented on bringing back the humanity in me, strengthening it. That's all I wanted from Bev at first, humanity. But I fell for her too quickly, and I felt more human, I left her and it tore me apart having to hurt her like that, when I came back and saw her in so much pain with so many walls up, I knew she would never forgive me. But she did, and I only fell in love with her even more. Her becoming a vampire changed my perspective, I fear I can't have my humanity if I love her now. I don't want to live in only my vampire side, Ronin. So I feel like I can't love her anymore." I explained. Ronin sat next to me.

"Chance, I'm sorry, but we don't get our humanity, vampires lost it. You're half human, you will never lose that little bit of humanity, no matter what. But you will lose Beverly. I see the way you love her. Have you ever thought that maybe you're allowing that need of yours to cloud your judgement. You remember what vampires can do, turn off their emotions. Maybe you told yourself that you couldn't love her and it made you believe it. But since you are half human, you have the ability to still love even if your vampire side doesn't allow it." he explained.

"What are you saying?" I asked.

"It's your own fault you believe that you don't love her anymore. But that human part of you still fights, saying you do. And now, you might have lost Beverly forever." he answered. I felt a stab hit my heart like a ton of bricks, the human heart I always had. The thought of losing Bev forever hurt. I did still love her, but I was the one who made her run, I pushed her away. Now I'm suffering the consequences.

"We have to find her." I said, finding back tears.

--Back to Bev's POV--

My eyes went wide when I realized what I saw. Four pairs of red eyes stared me down, fangs bared, in ready position. I felt fear and adrenaline at the same time. The vampire me wanted to fight them as well as if it was a sport. My fangs bared, my eyes originally red, I hissed int eh back of my throat. Kieyera's stepped in between us.

"Enough!" she ordered. The four vamps retracted their fangs, and calmed down instantly. "I will not have fighting in my house." she glared. They turned away and scattered away from us. I relaxed a bit, Kieyera sighed in relief. "Sorry about that, we are a very cautious group." she explained.

"Who are they?" I asked.

"My team. I'm the boss here, so they have to listen to me. Meeting in the green room in five minutes!" she yelled. All the vamps in here would have easily heard it. She grabbed my wrist and led me down the long hallway, through a couple doors, until we reached what looked to be the kitchen. She let go of me and walked to the fridge, pulled out a water bottle filled with a thick red liquid. It smelt of blood. she tossed it to me.

"Drink." she instructed. I didn't have to think, my instincts did it anyway. And it was gulped down in seconds. She smiled. "Good now, let's go." she said.

"Where?" I asked.

"Green room, meeting remember. I'm gonna introduce yu to everybody." I followed her out, we went down the long hallway again, through a door, up a flight of stairs and into another door. The room was painted lime green, with black furniture, an orange carpet, and orange curtains that blocked the sunlight from coming in, probably for me. Two vampires were sitting on the couch talking. One boy, and one girl. The boy had bright red hair spiked up, he wasn't super muscular but was decent, he looked like he was just a couple years younger than me. The girl had chestnut colored hair, and had a regular teenage girl body, she seemed around a year younger than I. Another female vampire was by the window on the phone texting, she had short black hair, and she looked in her 20's. Wasn't there four vampires? One rushed in at that moment, a female with long blonde hair curled in a fashionable way, she was as old as the black haired girl. She actually just happened to walk right up to the black-haired chick and they exchanged a smooch on the lips. Ew! Lesbo's!

"Where's Keanan?" Kieyera asked.

"He was still out with Vincent hunting." the red-head boy answered.

"Alright, I'll just start without them. This is Beverly, the best friend I've told you guys about, she's gonna be staying with us for a while. Till she can fend for herself, so, yeah. I need to go do some errands, introduce yourselves while I'm gone, if Keanan and Vincent coem back, make them introduce themselves too." she instructed before taking off. Things in the room just got extremely awkward as the four vampires stared at me.

"So Bev, how new are you?" the black-haired lesbo asked.

"What?" I was confused. She rolled her eyes.

"When were you turned?" she asked.

"Oh, last night." I answered. The mr. red(red-head boy) and miss-chestnut(That's what I'll call the girl with chestnut hair for now) looked at each other as if they knew something.

"Oh, then you're really young. I'm Nailah." the black-haired lesbo said. Now I knew her. "I'm 140 years old." she explained. My eyes widened. Woo! Oldies!

"I'm Desanka, but just call me Des. Oh, and I'm only 78 years old." the other lesbo said. I smiled. Des was a pretty name. I looked at the other two and they stood up.

"Corette, and this is Burrell my cousin. We're both are 12 years into being vampires." miss chestnut said. I nodded. These vampires seemed nice. But the taste of them didn't sound as nice. Nailah seemed to be feeling like I was competition, Des tasted like she was attracted to me, which made me sick. And the cousins were acting suspisicious, they tasted strange. Like they had something to hide. All very strange. And it was all still awkward, till the door to the room swung open.