Heartless Love

Chapter 22

"Oh my god..." napaawang ang labi ko ng tanggalin ni Kenji ang blindfold sa nakatakip sa aking mata kanina.

He made the reservation is at a secluded restaurant overlooking the skyline, where we have the entire place.

"Happy Anniversary, Baby!" He said happily and wrap his arm around my waist before giving me a soft kiss on my lips.

"Happy Anniversary, Babe! Thank you sa suprise mo! Hindi ko 'to inaasahan!" Masayang sabi ko at yumakap sa kanya. Narinig ko naman ang mahinang tawa niya.

"All for you.." he said softly

The atmosphere is warm and intimate as we enjoy a luxurious meal together, celebrating our love and the past year together. We share laughs and smiles throughout the dinner, reminiscing about their time together and looking forward to their future together. We spend happily our anniversary in Tokyo. Do wild things while having dinner. Im so happy.. Kenji always make me the happiest girl in this world.

My body has been acting weird for the past month. I've been having these strange symptoms like morning sickness, random cravings, and mood swings. At first I thought it was just stress or something, but now I'm starting to wonder if there could be another reason. I keep thinking that maybe there's something more going on with my body, but I don't want to overreact. And yet, it feels like something is definitely off.

"Hey, are you alright?" He asked softly.

Napabaling ako ng maupo su Kenji sa tabi ko. Kasalukuyan akong kumakain ng ice cream sa dining table.

"Yup, why?" Maagap na sagot ko at sumubo ng vanilla ice cream.

"You are eating ice cream, Baby. Kumakain ka lang niyan pag may nangyari.. may problema ba tayo?" Napapikit ako sa lambing ng boses niya. Naramdaman ko pa na hinahaplos niya ang bewang ko.

He never failed to amaze me. Kilalang kilala ako ni Kenji. Mas kilala pa niya ang pagkatao ko kesa sa parents ko.

"Ah, i feel weird lately.. stress siguro for finals.. you know, daddy.. mataas ang expectation niya saakin kaya siguro takot ako bumagsak. My goal is to make him proud. But, you know. Hindi niya makita na naghihirap ako para maging proud siya saakin." Pag-amin ko. Hinapit naman ako ni Kenji at marahang hinalikan sa noo habang hinahaplos ang bewang ko.

"You are enough, Piper, your effort is acknowledged. Hindi man ang daddy mo pero ako. I acknowledge your hard work, baby. Don't ever feel unappreciated. I'm here.. I will always appreciate your small and big efforts for yourself." Marahang sabi niya saakin at hinaplos ang pisngi ko, pinunasan din niya ang luha na tumulo saaking mata.

Kenji is my comfort, my solace.
My everything.. i cant live without him now.

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"What do you want, Autumn?" Hindi niya inaasahan makikipagkita si Autumn sakanya para tanungin siya sa past nila ni Hanagata. Ano bang meron at kailangan pa niya ikwento rito? Matagal nang tapos iyon.

"I can't help but wonder why you and Hanagata broke up. What happened to cause such a sudden end to your relationship?" Saad ni Autumn habang diretso sakanya ang tingin. Her stare is fierce yet full of hatred.

"What do you care!? It's not your business and I don't want to talk about it. Ilang taon na ang nakalipas, bakit ngayon mo tinatanong saakin ito?" Iritadong sagot ko. Napasandal ako sa kinauupuan ko at tumingin sa loob ng Coffee Shop.

I dont get it, bakit ngayon niya ito tinatanong? It's been long 3 or 4 years.

"I'm just curious, that's all. I mean, Nakikipagbalikan saakin si Hanagata, so I think I have a right to know." Kaswal na sabi niya at humigop ng iced coffee niya, napairap naman ako at iritado. I dont even know bakit ganto ang mood ko. Laging iritable. Mas lalo ako naiirita dahil inuungkat nila ang nakaraan dahil lang nakikipagbalikan ang animal na yon sakanya ngayon.

"Just leave me alone. Autumn. Matagal na kaming hiwalay ni Hanagata. Ginamit niya ako para makalimutan ka and i was fucking dumb and naive. Minahal ko siya, binigay ang lahat but ikaw parin ang mahal niya, naghiwalay kami don. Tapos!" Diretsong sagot ko at napatayo sa kinauupuan ko. Tumingala siya saakin.

"So, may nangyari sainyo?" Parang nasasaktang tanong nito saakin. Napakunot naman ang noo ko at napasinghap.

"Bakit inaasahan mo bang magtitigan kami sa loob ng dalawang taon? I regret that i gave everything to him! Okay? Sana maaga ko minahal si Kenji!,  Sana hindi ko siya nakilala!.. Now.. okay na? Wag nyo na ako idadamay ni Hanagata sa gulo niyo." Madiin na saad ko at umalis ng coffee Shop. Puno ng inis ang nararamdaman ko habang tinatahak ang daan pabalik sa condo ko.

"Ayos kalang? Bakit namumula ka?" Agad na bungad saakin ni Kenji. Pagbukas niya ng pinto.

"Wala, napagod lang ako kakalakad siguro."

"Saan ka ba galing?"

"Dyan lang sa baba.. nag kape ako sa Coffee Shop malapit lang dito." Naupo ako sa couch at sumandal. Sumunod naman saakin si Kenji.

Hindi na niya sakop ang kaguluhan nila Hanagata. Kaya hindi ko nalang sasabihin sakanya. Marami ng iniisip si Kenji about sa nalalapit na Final exam para sa college na itatake namin, next month.

I know I can't bother Kenji with my problems all the time. He has enough to deal with as it is, and I don't want to be a burden to him. It's just not fair to make him feel like he has to take care of me too. I have to handle this on my own, and I can't keep relying on him to bail me out of every difficult situation. For once, I'm not going to say anything and just try dealing with this myself.

After few days. Kakatapos lang namin magreview for College Entrance Exam. Kakauwi lang namin sa condo at dumiretso agad kami sa couch para maupo.

"That was brutal."i sighed heavily

"But we did it. We finished the studying. We should congratulate ourselves." He said while caressing and massaging my palm. I and Kenji are relaxing on the couch after studying hard for our college entrance exams. We are both exhausted and feeling relieved that the studying is over. I leans my head on Kenji's shoulder, feeling comfortable and at peace.

"Yeah, we should. We deserve it." I answered.

"You know what? I think we deserve more than just congratulations...kain tayo labas my treat, baby" He chuckled and he leans over and gently kisses me on the cheek, sending my heart fluttering.

"Deal!, Beef stake, okay babe?" I said happily and presses my head into Kenji's chest and he wraps his arms around her, pulling me close as I drift off to sleep.

Im so sleepy..

"I love you so much. Rest well, my baby.." Huling narinig ko bago ako tuluyan makatulog.