Dark Horizons

Chapter eleven

Dark Horizons

Chapter eleven

No, I thought, he had to be lying. My two best friends wouldn't keep something like this from me. Obviously Isabelle had but she was mysterious and secretive, gabby couldn't keep a secret to save her life.

"Nice try." I spat. He was so lying to me, I didn't know why but he was.

"Pam?" I heard Isabelle ask softly. It was her I-know-your-in-a-pissy-mood-but-what-I'm-about-to-say-is-important voice. I prepared myself for whatever she was going to say.

"Yea?" I asked back equally as calm. That was my go ahead and get it over with symbol.

"He's telling the truth." she murmured. I knew she didn't want me to hear it but I did. I never thought four simple words could affect me so much. The way she said it had hit me hard. It wasn't fair. They had been keeping quite a big secret from me. I always trusted them but obviously it was pointless.

Then my day of no food, tears, yelling, and pain set in on me. The world blurred and voices faded into the background. My body was overwhelmed with a numb feeling. Yet again I was falling into blackness which now seemed much more comforting then the world I was fading away from.

I was in ian's bed. He was sitting over me. I blinked. How did I get here? Damon wouldn't have brought me back to Ian? Right?

"Are you alright pami?" Ian asked concerned. I hated it when he called me Pami, when all my other friends called me it I didn't care but Ian had a way of saying it that just got under my skin.

"I'd be better if you didn't call me that." I grumbled. I sat up and started rubbing my head. I didn't have a headache but there was a weird buzzing feeling in the back of my skull.

"You know you love it." he said pulling me into his lap. He hadn't done that since fourth grade. We always used to sit under a tree and read books together in the same position. But again that was before his big transformation.

"Yea ok." I replied rolling my eyes. The silly banter wasn't a unusual for us. Before he left we would partake in conversations like that all the time. Useless conversations that held no important meaning. I had a feeling in my stomach that this one did mean something.

"Did you sleep well? You fell off the bed so I was scared you hurt yourself." he whispered calmly in my ear. This wasn't normal, the tone in his voice was one I had never heard before. It was smooth, suave, and...lustful? Ever since the first day nothing had ever been intimate between us. Yea we held hands and went to the fifth grade dance together, but it was just because we were close. None of our class mates ever suspected anything because it was obvious that to each other there were no feelings.

And yet for some reason hearing him say those words to me made my heart flutter. He made me happy. I could feel somewhere in my subconscious something was wrong but I didn't care. I was content where I was with Ian.

"Yea I'm fine." I said turning my head around so I coould face him. It didn't turn out as I had planned, I just wanted to see his face but I didn't realize how close he was to me so when I turned my head my lips made contact with his.

A part of me was shocked and knew I should pull away, but another more alert part of me felt like it was familiar. Ian didn't tense or seem surprised he just kissed me. It was a tender kiss that I would never forget.

I had kissed guys before, I mean obviously there was Ashton, but this was different. I felt real love in the short moment our lips had connected. I never once felt that type of care from Ashton. In fact, I was doubting he ever loved me.