From Knives to Pens

From Knives to Pens - Chapter 29

A/N: Here's the next chapter, two uploads in a day! This chapter took a lot of editing so I hope it's ok! As always please comment your thoughts below and notify me of any mistakes. I don't have much to say apart from this is probably the last peaceful chapter in the book if you can even call it that! I hope you like it. Ciara x

Chapter 29 Andy’s POV:

I drive around aimlessly, not really concentrating on where I’m going. I just want to escape what happened between me and Juliet. I can’t believe I told her I thought I was in love with her. Now she probably thinks I want to get back with her.

My hand slaps the steering wheel hard, making my hand sting with the force of it. How could I have been so stupid?

Eventually I pull into a grocery store car park, fed up with driving. I look at the clock on the dashboard. It tells me the time is twelve forty five and I whack my head against the dashboard repeatedly. I’ve been driving around for a few hours now.

My mind drifts to Willow. She might be at Jinxx’s by now, in which case she’ll realize I’m not there. Shoot. There’s only so long I can pretend I’m shopping.

Guilt floods through me at the memory of my conversation with Juliet. I have admitted the fact that I thought I was in love with Juliet when I was going out with her to Willow before. Willow will be devastated when I tell Willow I confessed to Juliet. I know she’ll think we’re going to get back together. It will destroy her. I never meant for Juliet to find out, it slipped out in our argument.

Willow’s perfect face comes into my mind but her eyes aren’t filled with happiness anymore. They are full of tears and her expression is one of pain. I reach out to pull her close to me, wanting to erase her pain, but my hand closes around thin air.

I flop back into my seat so hard that my head spins.  I welcome the momentary confusion. When I go back to Jinxx’s and see Willow, the guilt is going to overwhelm me completely. I can’t lie to Willow; I care too much for her. I’m so happy that Willow’s my girlfriend and I don’t want to do anything that is going to jeopardise our relationship.

I open the door to the car and get out. The fresh air on my face calms me slightly and I take deep breaths, wanting to inhale as much of it as possible.  Once I feel as calm as I can be with the thoughts that are spinning around my head, I walk through the car park to the store. When I enter I’m greeted by a blast of cold air from the air conditioning above the door. I go down the aisles, pulling jars of food off of the shelves, mechanically. I don’t really notice what I’m picking up, I just chuck it into the basket I carry.

Once the basket is full I go to the checkout. I pay for the food and leave. I place the shopping bags in the boot of the car and I slam it shut with a loud bang. An older woman gives me a strange look at the sound but I ignore her and get into the car.

I smell the burning rubber as I pull away.

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I hesitate before I enter Jinxx’s house, nerves pooling in my stomach. I take a deep, calming breath before I push open the front door.

From the living room I hear laughter and I walk towards the sound of it. When I get to the doorway, I look inside and see Sammi sat in Jinxx’s lap in the armchair by the window with Zack and CC sat on the sofa in the corner nearest to me. My breath hitches in my throat when I see Willow. She’s laughing at something that has been said, not noticing I have arrived. While Ashley continues the story he has been telling on the sofa next to Jake and Willow, I take this opportunity to study her.