DAKSHIKA

7|Flashback End

HER POV

How could I lose myself in his arms so easily? Why did he feel so irresistible? I have not been this way for anyone in these years, and yet I was falling for him so easily. It was like, he did not have to try much to make me nervous around him. I could not stop myself from looking after him when I saw blood coming off his face.

He was genuinely hurt. Because of me. How could he behave so recklessly?

I came back to my room. It was midnight, I saw Sunaina sleeping peacefully. Removing my dupatta I lay back on the bed quietly and closed my eyes.

I could still feel his presence around me. Even with closed eyes, I could recall his features, his smile, his voice, his actions. I was able to feel him, without him being around.

I do not know what this feeling is. It is the first time I am feeling it.

But I should not. I should not behave this way.

What if my family discovers about this? They would not like it. They are dealing with Angad and his family these days. What if Dadi-sa learns about my actions here and thereafter forces me to marry Angad? I can not afford to behave carelessly here. I can not.

A tear escaped my eyes while I brooded regarding my situation. I thought about what I was going through, and in these circumstances, I could not even consider feeling for someone.

After all, I do not even know who he is, or what he is up to. I do not know about his intentions. Anything that looks good is not good all the time.

I must avoid getting closer to him now, as it is best for me to stay away from him.

And thinking about previous moments I kept tossing and turning and later on slept unpeacefully.

I opened my eyes when I felt sunrays falling over my eyes.

"Get up Radhika you've been sleeping till late." I heard Sunaina complaining.

I tossed around and found her coming from the bathroom after taking a bath. I overslept today as I slept late last night. Because of him.

Later on, I got up and quickly finished my daily routine. I headed downstairs and had breakfast with everyone. It was really enjoyable here. No work no stress. Only good friends, funny gossip, laughter, dance and entertainment. Sunaina and I were really having fun with Lakshmi and her cousins who became our friends eventually.

All the ladies were gathered downstairs for some rituals. Lakshmi's mother was performing a few rituals along with Pandit Ji. Later on, her father and other family men also joined the function.

I could see happiness on her face all this while. She was enjoying every ritual. She was delighted and satisfied with this wedding. She knew her future would blossom, and she could not stop smiling over it.

I do not when would I feel so contented. Or would ever feel so happy in my life regarding my wedding? All I expected from my wedding was the groom should not be Angad. And that is it. I could not expect more from my family because I did not want to stress them over my issues.

Marriage is a life commitment and I felt tied in a situation where I can not choose to commit or not, to the marriage. I am ready to marry in any circumstances and to anyone if my only condition is fulfilled. Which seems a task in itself.

Contemplating my situation my eyes felt watery, but it was a beautiful moment in front of me, I could not ruin it because of my sadness. I felt someone holding my palm and giving it an assuring squeeze.

"You are also going to be happy very soon. Just have faith in God. All your wishes will come true." I heard Sunaina saying, sitting next to me.

I looked at her and smiled while nodding a little.