Oh
Oh my God.
Sometimes everything just clicks
The walls are melting around me and the sky is surrounding me in a tunnel I can't escape with birds screaming as the ground swallows me whole but yet
You're here.
I lay in your bed in the middle of the night,
I just experienced my entire life flashing before my eyes in a terror crafted by my psyche just for me
My heart races and pounds and it takes me a moment to realize it's not real, just impactful
My eyes dart around your room like bees around a hive as I look for anything to familiarize with but it's too dark. I miss my nightlights that guide me back to earth
I lay back down and try to just breath. Everything is okay, I know that, but I'll be damned if it didn't feel life altering in the moment.
As I lay down my eyes look over to you and everything else happening in the carousel of madness in my head seems to stop suddenly like it hit a wall
You look so peaceful, so happy and relaxed.
Your legs are tucked up to my side of the bed and you're all cuddled up in the blanket I brought over
Your hair is a mess and your nose is twitching while you snore quietly
The light you radiate in who you are lead me back to you last night, I fell asleep admiring you, nearly immediately forgetting how swept up I was in the insanity I awoke from
You are everything I ever dreamed of, ever wished for, ever imagined I'd have in a fairytale.
You're the stars I prayed to see on empty nights
The clouds to cover the sun when it beats down on me
The serenity of a first spring after a harsh winter.
You're everything I could've ever dreamed for.
You're perfect as a person can be, you have humanity and you have personality, and I love every fiber of it.
I love you. I adore you and admire you, I cry over you and weep when I leave your abode again. It's harsh how life keeps up apart from one another but we're stronger by keeping ourselves with each other's company for as long as we can.
I want to be strong with you forever. This isn't going to end. I promise.
